Then I just whispered few sorry to him; he just opened his eyes looking at me with a lot of questions and hurt was evident in those eyes. 
                          
"Do you know her Beam....!!" Forth just asked a simple question.
                          
"Yes, I know her, she was my high school girlfriend....it was long back...that's my past and you are my present and my future....I am sorry I didn't say anything to defend our relationship...trust me I was too shocked to react....all the more it becomes a bit difficult to react when you have all these old memories rushing through your mind." I was just telling myself to breath this has to get cleared...it will not be good for his health.
                          
"I will tell you everything baby, let's just not discuss about it today...I will tell you...I want you to feel good first...you getting well is more important than anything. Telling about my past can wait....I don't want my present with you to be of worried." With that I lightly pecked on his lips. I am not suppose to hurt his lips...I wish I could have rough kisses with him right now to take away that jealousy.
                          
After coaxing him for 10 min I took him by his hand to our bedroom, yes, we will be sleeping on one bed and I just want to sleep hugging him so that we can get used to each others body.
                          
He was sleeping, I want someone to help me out with our food.... so I told Max and Lam to stay for two days so that they can help out before our moms are back with us. 
                          
After some time, someone rang the doorbell, I am sure Lam and Max will bring in the food, or maybe they ordered some delivery. When I opened the door, I could see Namtam was wearing a very pretty dress and she said, "Let's go for a coffee and reconnect our old bonds...I have decided to relive our childhood.... common Bemmiee lets go on a date."
                          
Before I could say anything, there were 2 pairs of eyes glaring at me....I saw Lam standing in hallway with little bags of food stuff....where was Max was giving me a stern look as if warning me not to mess around.... I could feel a glint of disappointment on their face. I feel so screwed right now, earlier it was Forth now it's his family and friends. I better clear it up with this girl or else I am surely going to loose Forth. 
                          
"Ooohh my.... let me tell you something Namtan, the person whom you called Hot and badass is no one but my boyfriend....we are soon going to get official." I took few deep breaths, I feel so much of pressure around me to make these things clear. Then I continued, " I am not the same old Beam, I found the love of my life, I know you might be thinking why all of a sudden a guy.!!" I gave that awkward smile.... "Love can happen to you in any shape and size, it does not look for gender....it is a feeling when you see someone...when you cannot take your eyes off that person." I smiled with the thought of how I saw him for the first time...it has been a few months now that we started to get to know each other, but the reality is we are really a cool couple. Then it hit me I have to tell her and I have to be clear not building up false hopes that she will give into the idea of being friends. It's easy to be a guy friends, but in case of girls it's too much to handle. There I saw that disgust and disappointment at the same time...how complicated this girl is...I have to go and check on Forth, so "I am happy with him, thanks for inviting me, but right now my boyfriend needs me more than anything." She was shocked by this sudden confession.
                          
"Since when were you into guys....did you just confessed that you are gay..!!" Namtan said that with a surprise expression on her face.
                          
"I just liked him since first year of college life.....will introduce him officially...don't worry." I said with a smile.
                          
"I am sure you are not gay, I will just prove that you are using this Forth guy as your distraction, real feeling are somewhere else. We will rekindle our romance; this time I will not let you get drifted away". With that, she pulled me by my collar and again all of a sudden she kissed me...it was like old times liking and being a typical school kid....
                          
I suddenly feel different, old days thrill was creeping in...and to top it up, again Forth saw everything.
                          
I just realized what I did, I didn't fight back....the urge from here end was fulfilled by me.....just to realize I am getting more deeper in this trap...and in all this I am hurting Forth.
                          
All he did was walked away....
                          
Forth POV
                          
I just went to check on Beam, what I see was a movie scene as if old lost lovers ..... meeting after many years........it's so picture perfect. It hit hard, what if Beam is forced to be in this relationship....no wonder he was into girls....and from no where he was with his parents to meet my family. God, I really didn't intend to ruin this moment...I feel so hurt ...as if I am so undesired....not so right fit in his life....I felt heavy in my heart. So I left from there, went to the spared bedroom trying my best to take deep breaths to calm myself...I so badly need it. So I closed my eyes and focused on relaxing. Due to this incidence I have missed lots of things in my life...I am such a burden on Beam. I better tell Max and Lam to drop by...its better I go to stay with my parents.
                          
Just then Lam came back, he looked into my eyes and said "You are not going to do this." He knows me better for such a long time he has known how I react and take few drastic steps which later on hurt me. 
                          
"hhmm, why are you trying to guess what I am going to do."
                          
"I know you well, when you see something you have that face...your eyes speaks a lot. Let Beam explain you what actually happened in his past."
                          
"I think I know what will be the right moment to give him that much required space. But am I bothering him too much, I feel such a burden and have this constant feeling of such a misfit in this perfect picture."
                          
"Don't you dare think like a stupid, Forth we have come a long way..... don't think too much.....just trust me...I am having no second thoughts about us.....!!" Beam said it in a cold voice, in that moment Lam felt this was not the time to take sides so he gave some space for both of them to sort their issues.....was it really an issue or was it just a situation where they really didn't expect to happen.
                          
"hhhmm....I think it would be better if you get things clear between Namtan. I just don't want you to take any decision hastily...I can wait as much you want.....even if you decide to ...... !!" I was suddenly stopped by Beam with a kiss....it was a such a forced one.....I could feel the taste of some blood from my wound. It was then Beam stopped... "I am sorry, please don't you ever say that....staying away will be the most difficult decision for me. Just don't you ever ask me to do something like this, it will hurt like crazy....don't you dare...I am never going to walk away from our happiness!!" Beam was in tears....to see the blood coming out from my lips...it pain like hell....but seeing Beam getting emotional was not at all ok with me.
                          
"I am sorry baby...I am so sorry.." with that he getup to get the first aid kit.....I am just trying not to think of anything...may be when I will go for the final gear ceremony at the Beach, I feel that will be the right time to give some space to him......right now he looking at me some old sick person who needs attention.....but the truth is I really want him to think rationally.....what he did and felt..... his body language says it all.
                          
Beam was straight, but when did he become bi or attracted to men, was it due to me or I am just an infatuation in his life.... he has to decide....if he chooses either way.....I don't want to go through the pain of loosing someone dear to me but I can't be selfish just can't do that.
                          
So I have decided to give a 'guilt free pass' to Beam so that he can decide on what exactly he wants...funny part is he will not know the limitations of it.


                          
Note: Will try my best to update 2mrow, meanwhile you can check my new story 
                          
My Rescuer
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