Love Letters -02

                                    

                                          
June 1, 2019
I'm sitting here on a pink chair at a table for two. But despite the bright colors I'm feeling blue. The food is good, the scenery pretty, but I'm really missing you. 
   The first half of the year went by really fast. Ever since you had to be taken from me on the first day of 2019, the days flew by yet seemed to slow at the same time.
   Every time I head to the kitchen, I think you're still there. The early bird and chef of the house. Cooking up a hot meal for the winter weather of January. But on the first of January, I stood alone. I made myself hot chocolate, sat on the couch and watched the snowflakes fall against the foggy window. 
   February came and the weather cooled down a tad. I had a hard time getting through the month, especially when I was waiting to surprise you on Valentine's just to be told that I was not allowed to. I went throughout the month baking cookies for myself and watching movies. Having my job done at home makes things easier and worse. It's different to do work at home alone. With no one to cheer me up or give me a break.
   March came and it was busier for me. I got to help mom and my littlest sister with school things and so my mind was put off a bit. I still thought of you every day though. 
   April brought full spring and the garden I planted and grew was in full bloom. Do you remember how you'd tease me about getting my face dirty while I was out in the garden? You even sprayed me with the hose once because I was so into gardening that I didn't realize how much dirt I had on my face and clothes. 
   May turned slow. Every day I'd hear the silence breaking me. No one else has footsteps padding on the stairs. No one else hums or sings while walking around the house. No one else cooks. No one else walks the dogs. No one else sleeps with me or listens to me talk. I'm alone at home. And for the month of May, I mostly hung out with friends and my family. I took a trip to Disneyland and remembered our first date here. Do you remember? 
   And now it's June. This letter is so late. I know you've probably been waiting to hear from me but it is only now when they allowed me to reach out to you. I couldn't even visit you and the hospital is only a few blocks away. Please do forgive me. I miss you so much. I've been praying for you and I've claimed healing already. God has healed you. And I'm waiting for clearance to have you come home. 
   I hope to see you soon. The rare disease by medicine and science is gone in the name of Jesus'. By His blood you are healed. I miss you and I love you. Come back soon, okay? I'm waiting for you.