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I smiled up at Kai the boy I've happily spent the last nine months with, with guilt flooding my veins. I cheated on him, I think. It was our anniversary and he made us a nice dinner with candlelight and now we were slow dancing. His cold hands gripped my waist and my arms were wrapped around his neck as we swayed to the music that was playing. My dark brown eyes were locked with his dull green ones and honestly nothing about this felt right.
I couldn't get that guy out of my head. Sinclair, yeah that's his name. I treated him like a real bitch and he didn't deserve that but he was spewing a bunch of stories and I really hate liars like the fuck?
"You look good tonight..." my smile brightened at the compliment but it faltered as fast it appeared.
"But you could've worn something a little bit tighter you know. Let me see what I'm working with" I gave him a tight lipped smile nodding my head slowly as anxiety consumed me. Suddenly I felt extremely self conscious.
I didn't like tight clothes cause my body wasn't the best and I thought I look nice in my loose fitting shirt dress but apparently I don't. I'm starting to not regret cheating on him cause that dude treated me way better that he ever did in the few minutes before I was cussing him out.
Kai didn't accept me, he didn't love me he obviously just wanted to fuck me and he only proved it since as soon as I nodded his hands moved down to my was gripping it harshly and I winced shoving him off me.
"You know what. I don't think this is gonna work out anymore. You're a great guy but this just doesn't feel right" I felt nasty and tainted, like I was betraying someone even being in this place with this guy and I grabbed my bag heading for the door.
"I just wanted to fuck anyways, been cheating on you since day one" he smirked as if what he said had hurt me but it really didn't. If anything I'm happy he didn't have any real feelings for me cause I'm starting to thing I didn't have any for him.
Sitting in my car I tried to recall how the relationship between Kai and I started in the first place and I got nothing. No first meeting, no first date, no prior anniversaries. The only thing I knew was I was dating a guy named Kai and that's it.
I decided to call up Anna and she what she had to say.
"Who the fuck is Kai? I've never heard of him. What happened to Sinclair I thought you guys were good. Do I have to bomb him? Tell me now cause I'll get to work..."
"Sinclair? You mean the one night stand guy from a few weeks ago when we went to the club...." I trailed off and what I heard next rocked me to the core.
"Kida we haven't been to the club in months. Sinclair is your boyfriend. Don't you remember, you guys met in the elevator and hit it off. It was like you two were destined to be with each other or something" 
I hung up the phone and chucked it into the passenger seat. She's pranking me again that's all. I laughed to myself I think I'd remember having a boyfriend. Unless someone magically erased my memories or something which is impossible.
I blared a play list on the way home to try and clear my head, sighing in relief once I reached my apartment building. I greeted the receptionist with a kind smile and she gave me a pitied look.
"Sorry that you and lover boy didn't work. Everyone in the building shipped you guys, we really expected you to get married and have children. The whole nine yards"
"Uh...excuse me? Lover boy?" I looked at her like she was insane. What the hell is she talking about?
"You and your neighbour Sinclair? You were a couple, you both practically glowed when you were with each other, but he's moved out so I guess it's over"
"Y-yeah" I stepped into the elevator, pressing the six button with shaky fingers. Why is everyone telling me about someone I don't know?, and why are the convinced that he was my boyfriend. Kai was my boyfriend..
I stepped out of the elevator and things seemed to begin to move in slow motion. I saw myself and this Sinclair walking in the hallway hand in hand, as I walked pass the open door of the empty apartment I saw myself and him on the couch. Once I reached my apartment I closed the door behind me sliding down the surface.
I watched me and a man I didn't know do things that I couldn't recall at all.
What's happening to me?
Double update! Ion like how this book is going fr fr.