Raccooneggs X Reader: Butterflies (part 2) (3k special!!)

                                    

                                          
Here's the second part you have all been waiting for!! Hope I didn't disappoint!
Ezra POV
We had decided that I was coming home with Y/n and Carson for a month, since Y/n got to choose one person to come with her, and she chose me, out of everyone.
"Are you ready?"
"Yep!"
She had said she was feeling much better now, there were just a few bruises that still needed to heal, but all the marks on her body had disappeared. 
We boarded the plane. Carson had to stay behind for a day so he could talk through some business shit. He gave me a lecture on taking care of  Y/n.
Once we got settled in on the plane, we got first class, and we basically got it all to ourselves. So no one cared what we did. She unbuckled herself, and sat in my lap. I cuddled her in my arms while I still could. She obviously didn't like me, so I enjoyed it while it lasted. She shivered a bit as we took off. I grabbed a blanket and put it over her. She had fell asleep within the first hour of the flight. I pushed her hair behind her ear, and laid my head on hers as I fell asleep myself.
Time skip 
(A couple days later)
I had basically unpacked most my stuff, since I'd be staying there for the entire month. Carson was out at the store, and I was on the couch. Y/n had gone to the kitchen to get food. She came back with popcorn. She looked adorable in her large pastel pink shirt, that hung perfectly over one shoulder. I wasn't sure if she had any pants on under it, but I didn't mind. She leaned on my shoulder as we watched movies and cuddled.
A few weeks later
We were playing CS together, along with Cameron, and Jay. Jay was suspiciously flirting with Y/n. He had been doing it for about an hour and I was done with it. So was Y/n.
"Jay, if you say one more thing like that, I'm literally kicking you from the server."
"What? I'm just being friendly!"
Jay defended.
"Yeah, too friendly."
I said.
"Guys, Jay's fine, I don't need you to protect me from people, what are you, my mom?"
Y/n said, completely oblivious as to what was happening. I face palmed.
A few more weeks later (Ezra's flight in 5 hours.)
I had so much shit to pack up. I didn't wanna do it though. Y/n sat next to me on the couch lazily as we contemplated whether to get up for not. Y/n and I had bonded so much over the month. I bought her three games, even though she told me not to. She bought me a teddy bear. We had gone to the park and sat on swings. Sometimes we'd just sit on her bed all night and talk. We'd wake up in the morning really happy. Even Carson liked how happy Y/n was around me. He even asked if I wanted to just move in. Which, I denied of course. I had friends and family I had to be with back home. I turned to Y/n
"I really don't wanna leave."
"Well, leaving packing for last minute isn't gonna help."
"But you're not getting up either."
"Fine, lets go, let's do it. Right now."
She dragged me off the couch. She turned on music. Of course, before anything productive, there must be something random and off task. Y/n grabbed my hands and was dancing around me gracefully to the music. She sang along a little, and even jumped on my back for a minute of the song. She jumped up and kissed my cheek, then continued to dance around as she threw my hoodie at me. I blushed lightly. I admired her body as she danced. She may not have been curvy, per say. But she definitely had a beautiful body. Not perfect, but just right. She had nice curvy hips, but a slender sleek upper body. Her face and head fit perfectly with her voice and body. Her e/c eyes suit her personality so well. I continued to watch as I picked up my stuff.
A few hours later. (Ezra's flight in 2 hours.)
Y/n picked up the remainder of my things, as I grabbed my guitar. This entire trip, I had realized my strong feelings toward Y/n. She was just, so perfect. She sat next to me on the couch.
"Y/n, I have something to tell you.."
I sighed, trying to calm my nerves.
"What is it?"
She said, putting her hand on my shoulder. I exhaled strongly, starting to strum my guitar.
Play song
"Ultimately I don't understand a thing
I try to do the best I can
I know you try to do the same
We're just so bound to make mistakes
You could call it a disposition
I apologize for all your tears
I wish I could be different
But I'm still growing up
Into the one you can call your love
I don't know if I'll ever be enough
I'm throwing in my chips
I guess I tend to push my luck"
                          
Y/n, covered her mouth in awe.
                          
"And ultimately I believe we'll be okay
It's so cliché to say these things, but repetition is a key
I think I'm better when I'm with you
But I worry when you're gone
I think I need to learn to love myself
I must learn to be strong
So for now we'll say goodbye
Although it pains me in my heart
Your words they come to me in memories
They sing to me like songs
It won't be long until I'm here
Soon I'll make my arrival
Under shady trees
A quiet street
The roads that I have traveled
                          
Ultimately it's a beautiful thing
Like flowers blooming in a lonely field
The petals drift through crossing winds
They find their way to river streams
That scent the water beautifully, it takes me back to you
It takes me back to you."
Y/n had a look of complete and utter awe. She didn't know how to respond. I continued to play until the song was over. Y/n looked confused.
"What is that supposed to mean?"
"I am in love with you."
"What, Ezra-"
"You heard me, I am in love with you. I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we're all doomed, and that one day all of our labors will be returned to dust, and i know that the sun will swallow the only earth we will ever have. And i am in love with you, sorry"
Y/n couldn't speak. She just stared at me. I looked down, nervous as hell.
"Ezra, look at me."
As I did so, she smashed her lips into mine. Our lips moved in sync. Butterflies were going crazy in my stomach. Her arms went around my neck, mine around her waist. As pulled apart too soon, but didn't take our hands off each other. Our foreheads touched as we both smiled and breathed heavily, catching our breaths.
"I, I love you too."
Y/n said.
Y/n POV
We both had mad blush on our faces. I knew, after Ezra was gone, I'd miss him a lot more now. He held me close as he kissed me again. During Vidcon, I got nervous around Ezra. A feeling that was like nervousness, it felt kinda bad, but It felt kinda good. After Vidcon, that feeling got stronger. The bad feeling went away, And now, the only thing I feel, is butterflies.