Everything Ends

                                    

                                          
FIRST OF ALL SHARIKA WROTE ME THIS WHOLE CHAPTER AND I HAVE TO SAY A HUGE THANK YOU FOR SUPPORTING ME DURING THIS. AND FOR ENCOURAGING ME TO WRITE MORE. YOU ARE AWESOME GIRL !!!
                          
Dec's POV
                          
Each days in this bed goes the same. Waking up thinking about him ,going through the day thinking about him, going to sleep thinking about him. My friend...My brother.. I hate myself for blaming him ; I hate myself for thinking he wont come for me. He was going through every sorts of torture to find me and all I could do was moan. Moan and be sad ..that too for a woman?! whom I met just a couple of days before?! I won't forgive myself. I won't forgive her. She is the reason he is not near me.. no I am the reason.. Ant.....
                          
Its been two months since I am taken to 
                          
this hospital and finally I plucked up the courage to ask them what I wanted "My friend...do you know where he is?"
                          
Doctor's face goes pale and he hesitates a bit. No...it cannot be..its not
                          
Third POV
                          
Doc: "Mr. Donnelly, we don't know. The blast, it destroyed the whole place. When our ambulance reached there, we could only get you and some cops .And before you ask, no we can't let you see them. You are in rehabilitation and even your family had agreed to stay away from you. Its for the best"
                          
My famiy....
                          
The doctor continued "The only person we had allowed to see you is your manager.She comes here everyday to ask about you and buy things for you. But we can't let her near you for another two weeks
                          
Ali... I don't want to see her 
                          
Dec: "I don't want to see her"
                          
Doc: "Why not?"
                          
Dec: "Anyone else? has anyone else been here?"
                          
Doc shakes his head sympethetically and Dec's breathing catches on his throat
                          
Dec: "Doc, Ali..please, ask her not to come anymore. Can you please leave me alone? I am sorry but I want to be alone"
                          
Doc nods understandingly and move out. As he close the door behind him, he hear quite sobs from the room
                          
Dec sobbed his heart out , not knowing what else to do. Because the recent exchange with the Doc had put out the last spark of hope he had. Ant is no more.. its not a doubt now. Its a certainity now. Because, if he is alive, no one and nothing can stop him from coming to me. He would have been here whatever the odds be... whatever the odds be.
                          
Dec's wails reached ita highest promting the staff to enter and sedate him. He fell into oblivion wanting to hurt and hate himself
                          
He killed his only friend
                          
For two weeks, Dec was mourning for his lost friend that there were no ways anyone could make him do his routines. He was trying hard to make himself shrink. Make himself disappear.He had killed his friend. He dont deserve this life.
                          
One morning Dec woke up more tired than ever and his heart skipped to see the beautiful blonde near his bed, on a chair, reading something. Anger and despire rushed through him  She is the reason why I lost my friend.She is the one who caused fight between us. She is the reason why I doubted my only friend. It took me all these to realise that she was nothing compared to my Ant. The feelings I have for her is nothing compared to what I feel for him. And now he is no more, and I couldn't even tell him that.. I couldn't even let him know what he meant for me.
                          
Ali snap her head up hearing sniffles and frown at Dec "Declan, are you in pain? Are you alright?"
                          
Dec wiped his eyes and snapped at her "Why are you here?"