Expected - Chptr 1

                                    

                                          
i lay on my bed looking straight up at my ceiling covered in panic at the disco, fall out boy and muse posters, we wearn't allowed posters but you know i am a rebel. and some care workers i don't think even noticed.
                          
i was listening to The phonix, when i heard out front door open i ran to the window, to see a family getting on there bikes with there new adopted daughter. i wish that was me, but some how i don't think anyone will go for a talentless, deppressed lonely girl who spend more time on tumblr and youtube than i do outside wich is about 6 minites a day when i have to call the yong ones in to have lunch. i say talentless i can play the first part of this is gospal by panic at the disco on piano. As soon as it got to the chourus Ellen my Enemy strode through the door and stood at the end of my bed with her other slags.
                          
"Well arn't you gonna do something!" she hised.
                          
"why would i do something?" i questioned.
                          
"exactly you lazy cunt." she made her slutty friends laugh even though they just did it so she would feel like a queen bee.
                          
"You just a bitch who does nothing apart from insulting people and being a slut!" i sassed at her.
                          
"oh am i, well you just a lesbian who can't get boyfriends!"
                          
"If i was a lesbian why would i want a boyfriend!"
                          
she hushed before she soon picked a fright at me and soon i was being dragged around by my hair by someone and being punched in my stomache and any where else really.
                          
********** Time Jump **********
                          
i had a bruses over my body but i hid them with plasters after i cut my wrist twice.
                          
it was nearly the end of adopting time and i realised today i won't be adopted like every other day but today felt more disapointing cause i realised i'm wasting my child hood by doing nothing with no one apart from talking to Jen my best and only friend. i was walking down stairs to get dinner, when from the hallway i heard talking. it wasn't a child but maybe it could be a adult or somone willing to adopt. i lost the excitment in people visiting about 3 years ago when i started getting builed at re alised i'm fat and ugly and worthless that was a year before i started cutting. i wasn't proud after i cut but at the time it relived the pain of words when it was really giving me pain. i poked round the corner expecting to see two happy parents with a child and where gonna adopted a perfect happy little boy or girl, but insted i saw no other than DAN FREAKING HOWELL! i poked round more to see him fully when i spotted Phil, his flatmate. i went to far and Dan turned his head towards me, and friendly he smiled. my inner fan-girl was showing and i knew it, i smiled back then pegged it upstair and nto my bed where i scream into my pillow franticly.
                          
My name was called from down stairs which imedietly stopped my screams and, i assumed that it would be that dan had chosen girls in my age range, i couldn't be happier, appart from i knew he would choose ellen or one of her friends. i walked down the stairs and awkwardly my sleave got caught in somones hair and i could tell dan saw. i followed the rest of the girls into out lounge and saw that they had to talk with the girls who were playing, and i knew i couldn't bare to see dan taking Ellen home. i walked into the kitchen. where Ms. Smith was making Tea she offered me one but i declned before she could pass one to me. she then said. "Mckayla, i know you did it lat time but can you give Mr Howell and his friend a tour." she smiled, i knew this wasn't a question, it was istructions. i followed her into the lounge. and Ms. Smith lead me up to Dan and said i would give him a tour.
                          
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i started the tour and he asked. "What' your name?" as we were walking down a coridoor.
                          
"Mckayla Hazel Lacey Kuk, and i know you can take the piss out of my name." i said like i did to everyone new i met. i expected him to look at me rudly cause i said piss, but insted he just laughed.
                          
"i'm Dan-" i cut him off.
                          
"Daniel James Howell, also know as Danisnotonfire on youtube." i said quite fast.
                          
"well hello Mckayla." he smiled hpplily.
                          
i giggled and he continued to aske me more questions."Favorite Bands?"
                          
i replied with, "Panic at the disco, fall out boy, muse, MCR." i said looking down after speaking.
                          
he smiled as soon as words spilled out my mouth, we were still walking while this conversation happened but, we soon came to the end of the corridoor and the last door, Ellen's Room. i knew exactly what was gonna happen, dan would go running to her and take her home, we knoked then walked in. From shock of my face she shouted.
                          
"Mckayla get out you fat bitc-" she was cut off when she saw dan's face."Hi Kayls!" she said petting me.
                          
i stepped back slightly and Dan knew shew was making up stupid names for me so he would thinks she's "friendly". i closed the door and let Dan want to adopt her while i lay aggaist the wall opposiite the door. Dan soon walked out.
                          
"I knew that would happen." i mubbled but Dan heard,
                          
" What?" he asked worriedly.
                          
i blurted out "You will find somone happy and perfect like her, and then adopted her, and she would be all gratefull, when reall-" i was quickly intrerupted by dan. 
                          
 "No......i'm going to adopt you!" he said joyfully