epilogue

                                    

                                          
"It's really cheesy, you know, to write in a journal," Bambam comments, looking over Yugyeom's shoulder. 
                          
The maknae was sitting on a chair at the dining table, book laid open in front of him with a pen in his hand.
                          
"Your point?" Yugyeom retaliates, taking pride in having a cheesy habit. 
                          
"There is no point," the elder says honestly. "I just wanna see what you wrote."
                          
Yugyeom instantly snaps his journal closed, squinting his eyes and looking back at Bambam. 
                          
"You never ask to read it," he mutters, eyes staying trained onto the Thai boy, as if to read what his true intentions were. "What do you want?"
                          
"Okay, honestly," Bambam sighs, flopping down onto the chair next to Yugyeom. "I saw my name and I wanna know what you wrote." 
                          
Yugyeom shoves the other's shoulder, he should've known that that was all Bambam wanted to know: the gossip.
                          
"I wrote about how much I love you. Now go away," Yugyeom whines. 
                          
But then Bambam gets a cocky, shit eating grin on his face and Yugyeom regrets saying anything.
                          
"Nope! I wanna hear you say it out loud," the elder persists, always persistent, always somewhat annoying. "Get on with it."
                          
"Bam hyung!" The maknae complains. "That's embarrassing." 
                          
"Do it," Bambam says, now being the one who was whining. "It can't be that bad." He teases.
                          
Yugyeom glares at the elder, but still diverts all of his attention to Bambam, as he doesn't need to read form a piece of paper to tell the Thai boy how much he loves him. 
                          
"I love you," Yugyeom starts, looking anywhere but directly at Bambam. "I love you because you're funny, because you're smart, and because you're amazing. You're so, so amazing Mook, I want you to know that and own that. You make everyone around you so happy, and your smile shifts the whole world off of its axis. Mook hyung, I love you so much."
                          
"You're a sap," Bambam chuckles, shoving Yugyeom's shoulder, something the latter knows Bambam does when he's flustered. "But you're sweet."
                          
With that, the elder leans in and presses a light peck to Yugyeom's lips, basically just brushing them against each other. 
                          
"Bet you don't love the others the same," Bambam jokes, and Yugyeom's eyes flutter open as the sweetest laugh leaves his lips. 
                          
"All the same," he says, leaning back into his chair. "Love you and Mark and Jaebum and Jackson and Jinyoung and Youngjae hyung all the same."
                          
A lightbulb flickers in the back of Bambam's mind, and he's speaking before he knows it. 
                          
"Then tell me about them."
                          
Yugyeom doesn't think twice about it anymore: he really has nothing to lose. 
                          
"Youngjae hyung..." He whispers, a fond smile making its way onto his lips almost instantly. "Is so bright. He's so happy, he spreads it everywhere he goes. He's beautiful, Youngjae hyung is so beautiful. He's an angel really, our angel on earth.
                          
"Jinyoung hyung... I used to think Jinyoung hyung hated me," Yugyeom laughs, all bright and happy, with his eyes crinkling. "But he doesn't. He loves me a lot, I can tell. And I love him too. He's so passionate, he's so inspirational. Jinyoung hyung... Sometimes he doesn't even seem real. How can someone so perfect exist?
                          
"Jackson hyung reminds me of myself sometimes. He's really loud, and his laugh is so attractive. He's loud and he's so talented. Jackson hyung is stubborn, and I love that about him. 
                          
"Leader hyung can be scary sometimes, really scary," Yugyeom shudders, having Bambam chuckle a little and agree with what the maknae was saying. "But he's sweet. He's also really inspirational, he's so, so, so dedicated and determined. He has such a big heart, caring for so many other people. I love him a lot.
                          
"And Mark hyung... Hyung is the best. Hyung is so special, so different. Hyung is cute and hyung is talented. Mark is so sweet and he takes care of everyone because he wants to. Mark hyung is just really... So admirable..."
                          
When Yugyeom's done pouring his heart out about his six boyfriends, he feels heat rise to his cheeks with the way Bambam is looking at him.
                          
"You're right," the elder laughs, a bit breathlessly of Yugyeom was being honest. "All of our hyung are like that. All of the hyungs know how you feel." His eyes fleet behind Yugyeom for a split second, and it happens so fast that the younger completely misses it. When Bambam was done making eye contact with the five boys the maknae clearly forgot were there, he turns back to Yugyeom. 
                          
"So don't forget, Kim Yugyeom, hyungs love you back just as much. Maybe a bit more, actually."