Book Two Chapter Fifty-Nine

                                    

                                          


                          
           
                          
"Talk to me Jackson" I nudge him trying to get a response.
                          
"You were meant to say the safe word when you reached your limit, not after" I look at him and laugh.
                          
"I had not reached my limit, I just couldn't stand anymore if I could I would still be strapped to that table right now" I point out.
                          
"Look at your wrists and ankles, how could you not feel the pain and burning from the cuts?" To be honest, I didn't feel much in my wrists or ankles. I look at them, and then back at him. 
                          
"I felt no pain at all, towards the end, I felt the rope pulling on the wrists, but no actual physical pain" I am being honest.
                          
"If you didn't feel that then I think we need to be more careful, you should have been screaming in pain with how much the ropes dug in" he shakes his head holding my hand looking at my wrists and I watch as he slips away again. I slap his chest. 
                          
"Don't go soft on me again, I enjoyed yesterday, so what if there are marks, I enjoyed it and if you turn soft I might have to start whipping you to get you back. Plus, I love the marks, they make me smile and actually turn me on a lot, so shh and stop" 
                          
I shout climbing on top of him remembering how much I enjoyed yesterday.
                          
"I don't normally do this to people I love, I am used to it been a stranger, someone I am not attached to, the thought that I am hurting you, hurts me" He opens up and I in a way understood.
                          
"You're the first relationship I have been in where I do this to someone I love, don't get me wrong, in a way I loved my submissive's but not like you. I hate to see you in pain and looking at the marks on your body after making me think of how painful it must have been for you" I move so I am looking him in the eyes. 
                          
"I was not in pain yesterday, or last night when I collapsed to the floor exhausted and happy. Not once have you done anything that actually was painful" It is the truth, but he doesn't seem to take it.
                          
"So not once have I done something, and you thought, ouch, I don't want him to do that again?" He waits, and I thought back, every moment made me smile right back to the first time.
                          
"No, nothing at all. Okay, yes, I think ouch, but not in a bad way. Not once did I think that something was so painful that I wanted to cry, or that the pain made me want to run and hide from you, not even a pain that made me feel like telling you to stop" 
                          
"You remember telling me my fears are all in my head? Remember me blindfolded in that room with the window? How I didn't care? Well, that is you, you sat here with all the fears of what if, when it isn't true" 
                          
He doesn't say anything, just pulls me to him as he starts kissing me. His hands grabbing my arse, pulling me closer, his hands rubbing up my back I freeze under his touch.
                          
"What?" He is looking at me like he has hurt me.
                          
"Do that again with your hand" I wait and feel his hand stroking my back.
                          
"I can feel it all, every bit of it" I am fascinated like I can feel the touch for the first time ever. I have got so used to losing the sensation of his touch as his hands moved. It feels strange, but nice. 
                          
He clearly thought so as well, stroking his hand up and down my back watching me enjoying the feeling my head tipping back as I moan feeling it. I am excited, I grab the whip, looking at him licking my lips before biting on them. Smiling at him, tempting him to fuck me.
                          
"You can try, but it is not going to work. The boat will be here soon to take us to resort and today we won't be rushing back" He laughs.
                          
"Can we bring the whip?" I smile teasingly playing with it.