3.1 - dont talk to daniel

                                    

                                          
[DANIEL SEAVEY]
                          
"Hey dude what's with the shades?" Corbyn nudges me. "Don't worry about it." I say quietly. 
                          
"Are you okay?" He asks. "I'm fine." I say. "Okay. But I'm always here if you need to talk." Corbyn says. "Alright." I reply. 
                          
We head on stage and I pretend to be happy but it may have been obvious I wasn't due to some looks that the boys were giving me on stage. 
                          
I was so angry yet sad. It's like I wanted to just scream and cry. But I couldn't really. 
                          
During 'words I didn't say' I almost cried. But I held back my tears. 
                          
-
                          
After the show had ended I didn't say much. Because I knew if I did, I would either cry or rage. So I just kept to myself. 
                          
The whole ride home I stared out the window. I knew the boys were wondering but I didn't care. 
                          
They would find out soon enough. 
                          
We get out of the car and I don't even bother to go inside. I went straight to the backyard. 
                          
I thought I could find peace back there but turns out I was met with the exact opposite. 
                          
"You're welcome." Tyler simply says. 
                          
I had it. 
                          
"I should be thanking you?! You just ruined a perfectly fine relationship!" I spat at him. "You literally just broke mine and Joeys heart! For what? To get the media's attention away from Joey and I? No one gave any fucks!!" I yelled. 
                          
"Da-" "No! Listen to me!" I cut him off. "Just because you're my 'manager' doesn't mean you get to control my love life! I'm smart enough to make my own god damn decisions. I'm not some little kid anymore! So if your main intention was to put me and Joey into misery than you should be proud." I said to Tyler before storming off inside the house. 
                          
I ran up the stairs and dived into my bed. Almost instantly, I burst into tears. I cried into my pillow, hoping not to make it obvious that I was crying.
                          
I ended up just crying myself to sleep. It killed me that I couldn't just go hold her and care for her and tell her the truth. 
                          
-
                          
It's been a few days since the breakup. It's obvious I'm not acting the way I'd usually act. 
                          
The boys know I kissed Madison. But they don't know it's fake. 
                          
I'm pretty sure they all hate me now. I've hardly spoke to anyone. But I mean, what would I say?
                          
Joey probably hates me too. 
                          
I just feel like the whole world is against me now. 
                          
[JOEY STANFORD]
                          
I was heartbroken. I couldn't understand why Daniel would cheat on me. Everything was going good. 
                          
Unless he never really cared about me...
                          
What if all our entire relationship was a lie? What if he faked all of it? I wish I had closure. 
                          
It was really early. Like 4am. I was just sitting, looking out the window. Deep in thought. 
                          
I hardly noticed the tears falling down my face. 
                          
I was crying, yet I felt nothing. I felt empty. 
                          
I listened to All I Want by Kodaline and Say You Won't Let Go by James Arther and just cried and cried and cried.
                          
I ended up falling asleep on the floor. 
                          
I was woken up hours later by someone shaking me. "Joey." They whispered. I rolled over to where they were. 
                          
I opened my eyes to see Emily. 
                          
"Joey it's 1:30pm" Emily says. "Oh well." I said wiping the dry tears off my face. 
                          
"You gotta get up." Emily says. "Says who?" I said. "Says me." Emily says. 
                          
"Fine." I said sitting up. 
                          
"I'm having some friends over tonight, wanna come?" Emily asks. "Sure." I say not thinking straight. 
                          
"K be over at 7" Emily says as she stands up and walks out the door. 
                          
I decided I should get in the shower. I got up and saw my kitchen. A memory came to my mind. 
                          
My heart ached. 
                          
I just couldn't believe that Daniel could do such a thing.
                          
-
                          
That night was actually pretty fun. It helped me take my mind off of Daniel. 
                          
I also ended up meeting a guy. Emily says he thinks I'm cute. Maybe he can distract me?