Jeonghan's Baby [23]

                                    

                                          
Still my collab with @rebllion_queen :) I've edited some parts to fit in the story, but this chapter is thanks to the wonderful carat, @rebllion_queen! Credits to you, lovely~
                          
Jeonghan's Baby [23]
                          
Chan looked embarrassed for a moment, ripe red from ear to ear, before looking up at his hyung. Jeonghan's eyes widened a little, the question awed him, he felt horrible that his baby still felt that way, even when he thought it was fixed. The older pulled Chan into his lap, not caring if the maknae thought he was too old for it, but the boy was more shocked then upset. "Lee Chan, how could you think that- Of course I love you, that will never change",  by now Chan was sitting comfortably on Jeonghan's lap, his head nuzzled in the older's neck as his long legs sprang out from either side, "tell me what's really on your mind, Chan", the younger sighed, "I promise I won't be mad, okay?". 
                          
Jeonghan could feel Chan scrunching his face, "look... I know it's stupid and stuff but I just... we never actually talk anymore, you don't come and say good night to me, you don't pat me on the head...", he'd meant to stop at, 'we never actually talk anymore', but once he started he couldn't stop and the words just kept on flowing like it wanted to, "... you don't cuddle with me at all- I know I see you all the time every day, but it doesn't feel like I do, it's like I'm a ghost. I know I always bat you away when you're affectionate, but I miss it. I miss cuddling with you. I miss sitting with you in the van. I miss talking to you in the corner of the practice room. I miss you staying with me when I can't sleep. I miss you stroking my hair and singing to me at night. I miss how I can crawl into your bed when I'm having a bad day or when I'm upset, but now I can't anymore because now... Seunghan's there. It really hasn't even been that long, but it feels like months- sometimes I just- I want you to still look at me and still know when I need a hug or when I have a hard time to stop the members from teasing me... I miss it. You don't even ask me if I'm your baby anymore, you're always with Seunghan or anywhere else but with me. I Know you and Coups hyung are together now and you have Seunghan and I just- just there's no more space left for me... and- and it just feels like he replaced me. Like when you do all the stuff that we used to do together- the stuff that used to be our thing and I know I'm being selfish and I'm not supposed to feel this way, but but I can't- I don't know... I just miss you- I know that your not even my mom, so I shouldn't even be making a big deal about it, but I miss you- I miss my mom...".
                          
Somewhere along the way Dino started crying and the flood gates opened as weeks of pent up emotion came rushing out in a torrent of rushed words, while Jeonghan just held him, processing everything carefully. It hit the older like a ton of bricks, he hadn't spent much time with Chan since he and Seungcheol started dating and since Seunghan was introduced- the Seventeen family party didn't count, because that was all of Seventeen. "Oh, my baby, I'm so sorry eomma's been so busy lately and I really didn't mean to leave you behind- I know that there's not even any excuse that can cut this... You'll always be my baby, okay? My first baby, I may have adopted Seunghan legally as my son, but you will always be in that special spot you were always in- don't you ever forget that, Channie- I love you so, so much", Chan nodded meekly and just let himself be cuddled and soothed by Jeonghan's presence. After getting everything he was holding in outside, it truly did feel amazing, like he really did get his Jeonghan hyung back, for good this time.
                          
"How about tonight we kick Cheol hyung out and you can come stay with me and Seunghannie, I'm pretty sure he'll be fine with that", Chan lightly lagged at that and nodded, following Jeonghan to his and Seungcheol's shared room. He watched from the hallway, holding his pillow, as the angel kicked out the sleepy leader who eventually complied and marched out with his own pillow and blanket, grunting something about Jeonghan owing him pancakes for breakfast. Jeonghan smiled as he pulled him in the room, the two got in bed, Jeonghan pulling Chan into his arms. The younger felt like he was swimming in euphoria, wrapped in his hyung's arms. Jeonghan started gently stroking his hand through the fluffed locks once again, causing Chan to feel a flood of warm comfort down his spine. 

                          
In the middle of the night Chan suddenly heard shrill crying and something in him wilted, he felt Jeonghan stir next to him, he sighed grabbing his pillow, swinging his legs over the side of the bed as he got ready to leave because, undoubtedly, Seughan would end up in his mother's bed, but Jeonghan surprised him, kissing his forehead and telling him to lay back down as he left to tend a fussing Seunghan.
                          
He returned just a couple minutes later, getting back in bed. Chan was still wide awake, so he rolled over and poked Jeonghan's shoulder, "why'd you do that? I could have left you know, it'd have been more easier for you", Jeonghan rolled over to face him, tucking an arm under his pillow with a light giggle, "tonight and tomorrow is our day to make up for lost time, I know two days isn't enough, but I want to make sure that you feel like your on vacation, we're in California after all. I've already been a bad eomma... dividing my time unequally between you guys- don't ever hesitate, not even for a second, if you feel like that again, okay? Now come and cuddle", the youngest member of Seventeen smiled delightfully, nodding quickly, then within seconds, the boy was happily engulfed in Jeonghan's arms, as if an angel's wings wrapped around his body.













                          
Fin ~


                          
This has been a very interesting journey, but it has finally come to an end.. thank Jisoos lol 
                          
When I started Jeonghan's Baby, the idea just popped up in my head and I just honestly, off handedly created this story, so if there are things that changed or was inconsistent, my bad lol.
                          
There were times I was just bouta cancel the whole book but I fucking pushed through with a big help from @rebllion_queen , yooo real MVP here, thank you so much lovely! I honestly don't know if the ending should have been the ending but I like it so yeah lol 
                          
Thanks for the wonderful readers that were with me through out this book journey thing lol 
If you'd like to see more of my works or just Jeongcheol then please go ahead and check my book, donut shop (shameless promo lol)!! That's another Jeongcheol book that's actually already done, but I just got lazy with publishing lol 
                          
Anyways thank you again! 
                          
-Peace~ MKS<3