Chapter 11: Death (Book 2)

                                    

                                          
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Sahem Awa 
                          
"We leave for war at dawn," I heard Maqu say.
                          
I had been overthinking what Lorena had said. I would like to leave and escape but that would do me no good as our kingdom would still have a traitor amongst us. Not only would that happen but our army would possibly die faster in the war without me. 
                          
I trusted Maqu. He was like my right hand man when it comes to leading my army but even he knew that I could guide the soldiers like no one else could. I was the strength and core of the army because I knew my men's stories and their pain. I could relate to them unlike any other general. 
                          
Even though I killed a lot of people in cold blood, my army was the one thing I cared about the most outside of Lorena. And that is what she does not understand. If she were a man and if she were to be in my place she would see from my perspective. But of course, I can't blame Flower for trying to do what's best. 
                          
"Maqu, we have a traitor among us," I confessed. I finally lifted the big weight off my soldiers. If I was going to face death, I was going to die fighting. I was not going to be a coward and run. I could already feel Lorena's disappointed face in my mind but I had to not listen to her just this one time.
                          
"What? Who? No one would ever betray us. We have an oath instilled into these lads," he replied, disbelief written all upon his face. Maqu thought highly of my soldiers just as I did. But we had to face the truth as it is. 
                          
"No, Lieutenant. There is a traitor. It's someone who apparently does not care about the oath bestowed upon them. Line up every soldier," I demanded. I was going to find out who this traitor was and we were going to fight our differences like men- from man to man. And if I just so happened to face death while doing so then so be it. 
                          
"Sahem? Are you sure? This army already needs the help of the gods to be able to go to war. We surely do not need division between a general and his men at this time," my friend tried to convince me but I belived in Lorena. She would never lie about something as serious as this. 
                          
Oh, Lorena. I might die before I tell her how I feel about her. She knew I desperately wanted her as a friend. But what she did not know is I harbored feelings for her, forbidden feelings. For her own safety I never told her how I felt about her but maybe if I survive this assassination attempt, I'll actually tell her how I feel. 
                          
It would probably be useless as she would not allow us to be together because of the danger but I had to tell her. I had to tell her everything. How I was ruthless, how I ruined the lives of others by killing them in cold blood and how despite all that she was the one person who could calm the beast inside me. Her knowing the truth could possibly make her hate me but maybe that was for the best.