Hope P.O.V
"It is difficult being to old for kid stuff but to young to be an adult. It is hard watching your family fall apart after your parents started doing bad things. It is hard watching as your mom and dad leave each other and your dad going to someone else. It is hard to be a only child you whole life to get a brother when you are eleven. And then to get a sister when you are thirteen.
It is hard to see your dad and stepmom fight all the time. It is hard to see your dad cry and to have to leave so many times. It is hard to see your mom be sad and to know she misses having someone. It is hard to watch your brother and sister have to get taken away from there Mom and dad because they decided it would be a good idea to do drugs. It is hard. Life is hard it will always be hard.
Wether it is when your a child or when your adult. You will always have to face some type of difficulty. It could be someone dieing or your mom and dad leaving each other. It could be after to leave someone you love cause you know it will be toxic if you stay with them. Ok this stuff because I have experience with all of it. This has happened to me and I'm ok. I will be ok my whole life. I know I will be cause I still have people who love me. I still have people to stand by my side.
Sometimes I feel like I don't but I know I do. When you feel like you don't just think about all the people on your life think about your friends your family. It could even just be a pet of some sort. But trust me someone or something loves you. And I know one person who loves you more then anything in this world. He loves you more then your mom and your dad. More then your grandma and grandpa.
He has loved me through everything and he has been with me through it to. I know I will always have him. He will be with me through thick and thin. He is God and he loves you so so so much. I know everyone has a different religion and I know some people don't even believe in God. But I do and I have my whole life. I trust him to be with me and I trust him to take me down a path that he knows I can get through. Sometimes he might lead me through a bumpy path or a rocky road. He might even lead me through a storm. But I know that as long as he is leading me I will get through it. I always have and I know I have many more bumpy roads ahead and many more storms to go through but I know I will get through it. I also know you will get through it to. God would never take us down a path we couldn't handle. He know what we can handle and he knows how we will face it. And as long has you have God you can face anything. Cause he will always be there. And trust me on this he will never stop loving you.
You could do a horrible thing. But as long as you ask him for forgiveness he will forgive you. But even before he forgives you he will love you he always will and he will never stop. And I mean he will never ever ever stop. He loves you unconditionally. And he always will.
It is hard it is rough and it is hell. But you will get through it. If I can get through all the things I have then I know you can. I also know that you are strong. You are brave. You are a fearless person. You can stand up to your fears and you can defeat them. You can defeat all the demons in you. But before you do you need one thing you need God. He can help you he will help you and he will love you through all of it. He will be by your side he will never leave you. I have left God before and I regretted it so much but I found my way back. I'm still trying to get past my demons but I know that I have God and I know he will stand by me and I know that he loves me so so so much. I know that he will always love me. He will love me till I die and he will still love me then. I am his child and he will protect me. He knows what is best for me and he know what is bad for me he knows what I need and what I don't. He knows what I'm gonna do before I do it I feel like.
I will trust him forever and I will never ever leave him agin cause I love God and I will never stop."
I finished my speech and walked off stage and back to my seat. It was graduation and I was valedictorian. I worked on my speech for three weeks. I couldn't be more proud of it. I couldn't be more proud of myself I was happy with the way it turned out. I was sad that my dad couldn't hear it though. I wrote it for him after he died last year it was hard I didn't eat for three weeks I know that is bad but I did drink water and my mom made me eat at least a cracker a week. But it was still hard with out my dad. It still is. But I know I'll get through it always will.
I looked up to my family and they where all smiling down at me. My grandpa was giving me a thumbs up and I was so happy. I looked around at all my class mates and thought about all the good times we have had. I remember one time we all decided to have a huge paint ball match on the football field. I lost my voice that day but that will always be a memory I will keep. I am leaving for college in five days and I won't see any of these people for a long time. My cousin Grace is coming with me so I will have at least one friend. But I know I'll be ok let's just get the long road trip over with.
"Can all the graduates please stand. Can you all please move your tassels to the left. Thank you to all of you wonderful adults now for attending our school. I am proud to say that you are all graduated from Valley Way High School!!" My well now old principal announced as we all throw our caps up cheering. I had one of the biggest smiles ever on my face I was so happy and I just couldn't believe that I had really graduated I couldn't wait to start my life. California here I come.
