I'm Not Okay (I Promise)

                                    

                                          
Allie POV
                          
The guy, hold my hand, it was a nice feeling.
                          
"And what is your name?" he said while looking at me, and we started walking. "Allie" i said fake smiling a little bit "And yours?" I asked back "Frank" he answered. Then everything was in silence, i looked at him so many times, and he looks so familiar to me, but i don't know from where i know him, or even if i knew him. "You look familiar to me" i whispered "Oh" what all he said. "What kind of music you listen to, or what bands?" he asked holding my hand tightly, then was when i saw that i was shaking "Erm... I usually listen to Fall Out Boy, All Time Low, Panic! At The Disco and all those bands" i said smirking "Oh, have you heard about a band called My Chemical Romance?" he asked looking to me "Yeah, i have listened to s some of their songs" i answered to him, "I heard they are an amazing band" I didn't answer i just laguhed a little bit "What?" "Nothing Frank" i said to him. It was windy, and now, it was so dark and all the street was empty, it looked like me and Frank were the only ones in the city that night.
                          
We arrived to the door of a big hotel "Wow" i said trying that Frank doesn't hear me "Beautiful, right?" I nodded, we continued holding my hand, when we walked through the hall. "Why are you staying in a hotel?" i asked him, while we were going upstairs "Long story, that if i tell you, you wouldn't be here or you wouldn't believe me" he said smiling "Oh, C'mon i told you why i was there at the park" i told him "Okay, later i'll tell you" i nodded as we were arriving to the second floor, we walked until the 324 room.
                          
"Come in, this is my room" he said opening the door "It's so beautiful" i told him, he smirked and looked at me. The room was so big, and it had one large bed in the middle, there was a television and the bathroom was surprisingly big. I walked to the bed and i sit there, Frank was gonna sit bedside me, but someone knocked at the door. I heard him whisper to someone, i couldn't see who he was, or about what they were talking about. 
                          
"I'm sorry Allie,, i have to go for a while i will be here as soon as i can, it won't be longer i promise" he said trying smiling  "Oh" i said "If you want i can stay" he offered "No it's okay, i don't want you to distract you of whatever you have to do" i said fake smiling "Really?" i nodded, while he closed the door behind him.
                          
Frank POV
                          
The last thing i thought when i saw her there in the park was leaving her alone, all the night. Now we just arrived at my hotel room, i think she already knows who i am, but i don't care, anyways i was thinking of not telling her. 
                          
Someone knocked at the door, it was Gerard "What do you want?" i asked trying to cover Allie with my body so then Gerard wouldn't know she was here, "Who is she?" Fuck. "I saw her crying in the park and defiently i was not gonna leave her alone" I said to Gerard, who was giving me a weird look, "Really?" he asked, he didn't believe me. "Yes" i said proudly, he laughed "Does she knows?" he asked raising an eyebrow "No" i said shaking my head "Come here, we need to talk" he said giving me a suspicious look, i nodded and closed the door.
                          
"I'm sorry Allie, i have to go for a while, I will be here as soon as i can, it won't be longer i promise", she just whispered "Oh" "If you want i can stay" i said as quickly as i could "No it's okay, i don't want you to distract you of whatever you have to do" she said smiling and shaking her hand "Really?" i asked, he nodded so i walked off the room, to see Gerard standing next to the door.
                          
"What's the matter?" i asked him, he turned around and said "She can't stay with us" he said in a serious voice. I knew it, i knew she couldn't stay with us, but i didn't care "I doin't give a fuck about that, she needs someone right now Gerard" i said trying to deffend her. "I don't care. We have some rules Frank, and you know it" "But..." "Frank, no" he said looking directly at me "If she decides to go, i'll let her go, but if not she stays" i said, Gerard looked at me, he had this thinking look on his face, which made me laugh a little bit "Okay" he finally accepted and walked to his room.
                          
I turned back to the door of my room when i saw Mikey standing there, he was gonna knock at the door, oh no. "Mikey stop" he turned his head and he looked at me "Oh, you are here" he said just before the door opened to show Allie standing there "What?" she said to Mikey, then she saw me "Oh, Frank. I'm sorry, i shouldn't have opened the door" she whispered looking at the ground "It's okay" Mikey said. Okay, now i was fucked, Mikey was looking at her too much and i was getting kinda nervous for that "What did you wanted Mikey?" i said to him, walking to my room and entering. Allie stayed behind me, resting her head in my shoulder "I just wanted to tell you that tomorrow we have to go earlier to the soundcheck for the band" Why everything has to happen to me?!? I didn't want her to know that i was in a band! "Oh, okay" i said before closing the door in front of Mikey. When i turned around, i saw Allie standing there.
                          
"Sooo " she said "You are in a band? In a band called My Chemical Romance right?" she said giggling "Yes " i said giving her a shy smile "Now you know" i said walking to the bed and sitting there.
                          
"Are you tired?" i said to her, who was standing in front of me "Not at all" she said stting right bedside me "Do you wanna talk?" i said, probably that would make her feel better "No, thank you" she said looking to the ground, i don't know what's wrong with this girl, i was trying to be nice to her. "Are you okay?" "No, I'm not okay Frank. I think i can't stay here, i'm sorry"
                          
"What!? Why?!" i asked her getting up the bed just like she was doing "Because i can't stay. I feel bad. You are worrying to much to me" she said, taking her bag, and putting on her back, while walking to the door, but i was faster than her, so i grabbed her by the wrist, and out in between the door and her, so then she couldn't leave. "I'm not gonna let you go. I told you" i said looking at her sad brown eyes "Frank" he pouted "No. At least tonight you are staying"
                          
Allie POV
                          
i panicked, no i couldn't stay here, nope, no. I couldn't. He is being too nice to a pice of shit like me. I'm not gonna stay. I wasn't gonna stay. I can't, because if i do... I will end up, well i will end up having to live for someone, not for me. I didn't want a fucking reason to live. I wanted to die. I had too much of  life.
                          
"Please" he said. he was grabbing my wrist which was hurting a lot, i had some recent cuts. Well, just one more night, do it for him, i thought "Okay, only one night. Now let my wrist go that it hurts so bad" i told him. 
                          
After i had gone to shower, i got out of the bathroom, dressed up, as i was later. "Do you have any PJ's?" he asked to me, "No... But it's okay, it will be only tonight. It's okay" "No, look, put this clothes on. They are mine but we are almost of the same height so it would probably fit you" 
                          
I went to the bathroom and i out them on, they looked a little bit big but i didn't care. We had to sleep in the same bed, but i tried to lie as further as him as i could. I wasn't tired but i feel asleep so quickly.
                          
*DREAM*
                          
I was at home, and my dad was hitting me again. I couldn't stop him, he was way more strong than me. So sometimes i just give up. It hurts. it hurts so much. And i couldn't do anything. 
                          
"You are probably the dumbest person in this world. I don't even know why i call you my daughter. I don't even know why i had you. Oh, and one thing that i've never told you. You are not my daughter. You aren't my daughter, and you will never be" my dad shouted as he hit me, again and again. When he stopped i ran upstairs, when to the bathroom and locked myself inside. I started to cry, this started since my mother's death. I hatre it. I hate my life. I grabbed a blade and i slice it on my wrist five times? More? i don't even know. And i didn't understand why he didn't stop telling me that i wasn't his daughter. I hate myself. I shouldn't -
                          
*DREAM ENDS*
                          
"Allie, calm the fuck down!" i  heard Frank said, he had his arms wrapped around me and i had my head against his chest "I'm so sorry" I said when i became full aware that i just had a nightmare, and i just woke up Frank. "I'm sorry if i bother you. i should have left." i said while sobbing "Shhh" he whispered in my ear "I'm scared" i whispered.
                          
"Don't be. I'm here with you. I'll keep you safe tonight" he said into my ear, i could feel his breath in my ear and in my neck.
                          
A/N: So i hope you like the fanfic. This one is the first that i write in english so i'm sorry if i make some mistakes XD. I will try to update as much as i can.