Chapter VII- The Cuts-

                                    

                                          
Mikasa woke up to a pounding headache. Her alarm screamed at her, but all she could hear was Grisha's voice and Eren's blood-curdling screams. She opened her eyes. It was impossible to get any sleep.  
                          
Everything that happened that day was haunting her. 
                          
She quickly sat up, and waited for her eyes to adjust to the darkness of the room.
                          
Eren wasn't in the bed.
                          
"No...please no!", She shrieked, aloud. She quickly arose from her bed and ran outside of the bedroom. Her lungs giving out, huffing and puffing. Her head twisting around for any sign of him.
                          
That's when her eyes fell on the bathroom door, light coming from the cracks of the door.
                          
Mikasa began to pound on the door, "Eren?" she yelled, and that's when she noticed that she was shaking. What if he tried committing suicide again? What if he had cut himself again? What if he was gone?! What if...? That's when she heard the sobbing from the other side of the door. "Eren, please can you open the door?", Mikasa asked, softly, trying to conceal her feelings. 
                          
The sobbing came to a sudden halt. "Eren?"  There was no response. She tried twisting and turning the door knob, but it was locked. Her breathing quickened, and the panic set in. "Eren!" she yelled, as she slammed her hand on the door. "Please open the door!"
                          
Still no response.
                          
Her mind drifted to the worst possible scenario, what if he was dead? What if he killed himself?!" "Eren!" She yelled, pulling at the doorknob. She had to get inside, She just had to! She kept on yanking the metal, until She had managed to pry it open and flung the door open.
                          
She had found him.
                          
Eren was slouched inside of the bathtub, with the bath water overflowing, filled with the colour red. His arms stained with blood, the knife still clutched in his hand. "No," She said, her voice only a whisper. She was unable to take her eyes off of him. She felt nothing but numbness. Her body jolted towards the bathtub, as she jumped in, pulling his cold broken body out from the water. "No..." she cried.
                          
She put her head on his chest, and she did not hear silence like she expected. His heart thumped against her ear, as strong as it always was. That's when she lost it. A sob escaped her mouth, as she buried herself into Eren's shirt. He was going to be okay. She threw her arms around him, and clung onto him. she was never letting him go, never again. 
                          
Mikasa wrapped her arms around him. She held him tightly as she teared up, but fought back against overwhelming emotions. She  held him closely as she looked at him once more. She bit her lip, fighting back tears.. "E-Eren...Please...D-Don't do this again...Please Eren...Please...", She stuttered. As, she looked up at his face. His eyes still sore and puffy.
                          
"Please. Mikasa. Let me die here." 
                          
"No, never again. I'm never letting you go, Eren."
                          
"Please, Mikasa..."
                          
"Eren, don't worry everything is going to be alright, don't worry."
                          
"Mikasa, I need to tell you something..."
                          
"What is it, Eren?"
                          
"Thank you for everything, Mikasa...Thank You So Much", Eren softly said
                          
Mikasa held Eren tighter, pulling him closer in to her arms. 
                          
This reminded Mikasa too much of that day. The day Carla died. What Mikasa learned that day was the inky darkness always engulfs the frail light, diminishing all happiness and bliss that had risen with the sun. 
                          
Eren still couldn't tell Mikasa. No matter how hard he tried, he knew that it would break Mikasa. She couldn't know. She just couldn't.
                          
Their thoughts both focused on each other. Their eyes both lingering in eachother's,  Now only the silence lingers in the air. Eren was the first to break it.
                          
"Thank you... Giving me a reason to fight..." 
                          
His gaze slowly meets hers, tears welling up and beginning to fall slowly. He faintly smiled falling into her arms, so full of bliss. She held him closely as she looked at him once more. She bit her lip, fighting back tears. Warm tears shed down Mikasa's face.
                          
"I don't want to lose you again."
                          
Eren cried once those words escaped her lips because he knew, he wouldn't be here for that long.