If This Is What You Want, Then Stay

                                    

                                          
Over the next few days, Jyn went through the motions, the decision she knew she would eventually have to make hanging over her almost tauntingly.
                          
She hadn't spoken to Mon Mothma since they talked almost a week ago, but she was sure that her opinion on the matter hadn't changed. Jyn guessed that Bodhi's opinion also hadn't changed either. This didn't help though and Jyn found herself secretly wishing they would change their minds, so she had an excuse to leave.
                          
Her whole being told her that leaving was what was best but there was a small part of her that told her to stay. That part of her got bigger and bigger with each passing day and it went against everything Jyn had ever known.
                          
Don't get attached, that was her one rule. And she'd broken it.
                          
Loneliness used to be Jyn's comfort. It was what kept her safe and now she found herself wishing she were anything but lonely. In some ways, it scared her. The idea of being attached to someone, of being so open, frightened Jyn.
                          
When you've been alone for as long as she had the whole idea of caring about people turns into a foreign concept and one that becomes quite difficult to deal with. When those feelings began to creep in, Jyn's initial reaction was to cut them out, stop them from getting stronger but now she was faced with a situation where she was too late, and those feelings had already embedded themselves with no way of getting rid of them.
                          
At this point it wasn't just Cassian she was concerned about, it was Bodhi too, perhaps the entire Rebel fleet.
                          
Jyn hadn't been a part of something that important for so long. She hadn't been around people for so long either and she didn't realise how comforting she found it, to be making a difference. To be around people, real people.
                          
For the first time in a long time, she was happy and despite the losses she'd suffered she knew that it was better to go through the resulting heartbreak together rather than to face it alone.
                          
If  this is what you want, then stay.
                          
In that moment, Jyn knew. She knew what she wanted to do.