Calum || Jorja

                                    

                                          
I'm sorry but I can't date you. It's sweet of you to call me beautiful and other names. But I just can't. You are a sweet guy and If I wasn't like I was then I would seriously consider your offer. But being who I am and living the way I do I just can't. I'm sorry Calum. 
                          
This message was a little less then you wanted to send but it cut it simple. You didn't want to explain his each time he called you beautiful you inner self would slowly break apart. You always never saw yourself as beautiful but he sure did. He always somehow sent you the sweetest things.
                          
You waited for a reply anything to let you know he was okay with it. But nothing came to console your guilt. You hated this. You knew that when he confessed he likes you that nothing was going to happen and you would shatter his heart.
                          
You placed your phone beside you as you thought about your options: 
1. Date him. (Which is what you have been trying to avoid.) 
2. Tell him everything. (Judgement is what is stopping your thoughts towards that.) 
3. Move away. (Good option Jorja.) 
                          
Your thoughts shifted as someone kept banging on your front door. You wasn't expecting anyone to come over today or yet any day. As you quickly opened your door you saw him march in. "What was with that text?"
                          
"Calum, I can't discuss that with you."
                          
"Is there another guy..if so Jorja I understand." 
                          
"No." You sighed as you walked towards the couch. 
                          
"Then what is it?" He followed you actions and took a seat beside you. 
                          
You can't tell him. He can't know you insecure thoughts. The idea of hurting him more then you already have just stings. It wasn't meant to be like that. You weren't meant to hurt him not anyone. But with everyone that has hurt you, you just couldn't help but keep your guard up. Your eyes shot to him as his hand help tightly to yours. 
                          
"Calum, I can't.." You remove his hand from his grip. 
                          
"What? Are you uncomfortable that I call you beautiful? Or that I express my feelings about you? Jorja, I like you a lot. I can't help the way I feel. I know you have some feelings for me. I See it, why can't you just let your feelings out and expect how I feel?"
                          
You sit there not knowing what to say or how he knew everything that has been rattled in your brain. You look away from him as you try to find any words to say. 
                          
"You are -" 
                          
"Stop! Calum just stop!" You demand standing to your feet. "I'm not beautiful or what you think I am. I am a beaten down girl that keeps her guard up. You will just hurt me like everyone else does. Can't you just get the picture that I don't want to date you or even like you." You felt tears prick your eyes. 
                          
"Jorja." Calum softly spoke as he stood in front of you. He grabbed your wrist in his hands. "Jorja." He spoke again in attempt to get your attention. 
                          
His fingers grabbed your chin making you face him. "I will spend everyday making you see how beautiful you are inside and out. I'm not like other guys. The guys that have broken your heart are just bastards that don't care. But I care. Jorja I care. I know you care for me. I know you don't want me to walk out that door and never come back. Just admit it." 
                          
"I can't." You couldn't help but cry. You were so frightened of him hurting you as others have done in the past. 
                          
"Just one chance. Jorja. I care for you so much I can't let you slip away. I just can't." His forehead pressed against yours. 
                          
"Can you just give me a chance to show you that I'm not what you think? If you still feel this way I'll let go." 
                          
"Okay. I'll try." He smiled widely at your words. He wrapped his arms tightly around you as he spun around. 
                          
You couldn't help but giggle at his action. He stopped as he still held you tightly to him. "Can I kiss you.?" 
                          
You pondered the idea before slowly nodding. His smile got brighter as he placed his lips on yours.