28: memories

                                    

                                          
"5 easy ways on how to get over someone who wasn't even yours to call:
                          
1. please delete all pictures of him because even if you say it won't do anything, it will still help.
                          
2. delete their contact. their number, snap chat, Instagram, everything that deals with him.
                          
3. I know you want to look at him but please don't. what good will that even give you? you'll just feel even more heartbroken over him and nobody wants you to feel like that. act as if he isn't even there, as if their is no him in this world. do this until you know you're ready to speak to him again without feeling the dreadful sting inside your heart.
                          
4. avoid saying their name, for now, don't bring their name up. and don't panic if someone brings them up, it's going to be okay. don't panic if he's in the same room or group of friends with you also. act normal. avoid awkward eye contact and act as if everything is alright, show him that you don't need him.
                          
5. let him go. if he doesn't feel the same towards you, it's his loss. you're amazing and so beautiful, don't let his opinion define you. realize that you can do so much better than him. he's just some dumb boy. do not wait for him. do not overthink things and think there still might be a chance. now, there might be a chance in the future but not right now. I repeat, do not wait for him. let him go and realize how you don't need someone like him. it's his loss, baby."
                          
♡♡♡
                          
Jennie was scrolling through her social media when she came across a blog that caught her eye. Should she try this? Should she learn to move on and stop thinking about him? But the thing was they never officially break up. Jennie just left without him knowing. Is that called being dumped or abandoned? 
                          
Jennie then saw a red heart box on her desk and felt the urge to open it even if her brain told her not to. The moment she opened the box was the same moment she regrets opening them. It was full of notes and pictures of Taehyung and her. 
                          
She picked up a piece of note that wrote ;
1. Jennie's favourite food is milk ice cream. She doesn't care what brand it is. If you can, stop by a convenience store and buy her some. She'll hug you out of joy and her smile is the most beautiful thing in the world.
                          
2. Dog dates or a date at a dog cafe is a must with her. Or just any animal.
                          
3. She actually prefers the sunrise than the sunset. It gave her a sense of beginning. 
                          
4. She likes watching the moon and stars. One day you should go to her house and watch the stars with her in your arms.
                          
Jennie couldn't help as a single tear slipped down onto her face. She never knew Taehyung wrote all these things about her and it made her felt more guilty for leaving him behind. The box was on her end table when she was being hospitalised. She felt a tingling sensation on her wrist and saw someone wrote ;
                          
' I miss you, wherever you are J, ♡ T' 
                          
Jennie felt suffocated with all the piles of their memories scattered on her bed and decided to talk a walk to the park.
She and Kuma was strolling around when her eye caught a couple having a picnic nearby. The man was laying his head on the woman lap and it made her recalled a date she had with Taehyung.
                          
"If you wanted to lay down, we could've just stayed at my or your house, Tae. Jennie complained when Taehyung rests his head on her lap.
" Well, I wanted to have a relaxing date with you. Plus this counts as a picnic and I'm afraid that if we'll stay back home, both of us would eventually fall asleep ." He said while caressing her cheeks which made Jennie pouted even more.
" I don't mind doing anything boring or weird even sleep dates are okay. As long as I'm with you." Jennie replied while playing with his hair. 
                          
Jennie sigh for the umpteenth time that day. She decides to go to the library to find some distractions. She was silently reading a book when she saw a couple seated in front of her was endlessly flirting with one another. " So, we'll replace this Y into the X equations.  That way we'll can find X. Taehyung! Stop staring at my face and focus. You said you needed help with Mathematics." Jennie scolded Taehyung when she caught him staring at her. " You have cat eyes and a mole on your lids." Jennie slapped his arms lightly and he focused back with his studies. Jennie didn't even realise that she was now staring at his face untill she touched his nose lightly which shocked him. " Weird. You have monolid and double lid plus your mole on the nose compliments your face. Oh my god! Sorry." She then hid her red embarrassed face behind her books which earned a chuckle from him.
She shook off the memories and continued her reading untill it was night time. 
                          
That night she couldn't sleep. She went out to her balcony to enjoy the night breeze. She then recalled back the memory when she had a nightmare after going to a hunted house and she called Taehyung over. " Hey, Jen" he softly whispered at her. "Yeah" Jennie replied back. " You see the stars that looked like a smiling face ?" He pointed to the sky and she nodded. "It's ours. It is the constellation of the Capricorn." Jennie was amazed at how he knew the constellation. " Really? Did you learn to read the constellation? " she asked out of curiosity. "Well, you did say you love watching the stars but you didn't know any constellation,  so I learn some of them especially for you." He said while kissing the top of her head. Jennie mumbled a quiet thank you. They were back hugging with a blanket draped over their shoulders just enjoying each other presence and the stars. 
                          
When the night breeze sends chills to her body, she went back to bed. She decided to write back to her soul mate whom she assumes is Taehyung.  
                          
"Everything reminds me of you."