Chapter 15

                                    

                                          
I wake up the next morning and through on black leggings a crop top that says  'I ain't no pansycake' and combat boots. Last night my mom shaved my head so I wouldn't have to just watch it fall out. I decide to put on a beanie to cover it. I don't put on any make up. When I look in the mirror I look and see that I am extremely pale and am really skinny from the cancer. A tear falls down my cheek. I sigh, I have to tell my friends today. I only have around 2-3 weeks left. I can't take it, I fall to my knees crying. Sobs escape my mouth. I don't want to die. I am terrified of dying. I look up at my ceiling with tears pouring down my face and say " God, I was raised In Church and have learned about you and stuff and how caring you are. I also know that if 2 or more join in prayer and agree then it will be given. I know I am only one person but please God save me! I know you love me so please! I'm not ready to die! I will do anything!" I cry and cry. When I finally can't cry anymore I look up and see that school has already started and I should be in 1st period. I get up and i see I look like I have been crying. I sigh, I don't have time to fix it. I skip breakfast. When I get to school I get my things out of my locker and walk to 1st period math with Mr.Kang.  Mr. Kang is Giving a lecture when I walk in. Everyone stops and stares at me. I wouldn't blame them, my eyes are red and puffy, I'm not wearing any make up, I'm so pail I look like a ghost, and I'm wearing a beanie and I never wear them. I look at Mr. Kang and say 
" sorry I'm late." my voice is half gone. 
" It's fine take a seat" cancer perks.
All my friends are in this class and there are plenty of seats open next to them, but I just go into the back of the class room in front of Lauren and behind Cara. After a few minutes of Mr.Kang's lecture Lauren raises her hand and says " um, Tris's beanie is against dress code because it is not black and she is in dauntless." She stands up and I look behind me to see her smirking. She comes over and takes it off of me so that everyone sees that I am now bald. Only my friends and teachers know I have cancer, so they all start laughing, whispering, and pointing. I look around and see my friends. The guys are just looking at me  sadly and the girls have tears in their eyes. Tears start pouring down my face. I grab my beanie from Lauren's hands and run to the door of the class room. I look back and say hiccuping " just so you guys know, I have cancer." everyone goes quiet even Lauren. I run out the door crying again. I hear yelling from the classroom. I run out the doors of the school and to the park. I hear people screaming my name, but I just keep running. Once I get there I slow down and walk to the swings. I sit down. I just sit there and think about what just happened until I'm no longer crying. 
"Tris?" I hear from behind me. I turn around and see the gang standing there. I turn back around and pull my beanie down even lower on my head so that it's above my eyebrows. They walk around to the other side so that they are in front of me. I just sit there silently before saying 
                          
" I need to tell you guys something." 
                          
"What is it Tris" Lynn asks concerned.
                          
" I- I-" I try to say
                          
"Spit it out Tris" Peter says.
                          
" You already know I have cancer, but you don't know I only have 2-3 more weeks to live." I say tears making their way into my eyes. 
"I'm going to die and I'm sorry. I'm so sorry". I say sinking to the ground. I start sobbing. I hear Christina say 
" No, no!!! Tris you can't leave me you're my best friend!" She falls on top of me crying. We hug each other while crying. I look up and see every one either on their knees and crying or just covering up their face. Then there is Tobias. He's just standing still staring at me no emotion on his face. I stand up and walk over to him. "Four?" I ask. 
"Four?" I ask again. He just keeps stating at me. "Four" I yell with tears in my eyes. The group stands up and walks over to us. 
"Four, buddy you in there?!" Zeke asks.
" Please talk to me!"i say crying.
He suddenly falls to the ground on his knees with his hands over his face and his back shaking up and down signaling he is crying. Nobody has ever seen him truly cry besides a couple of tears in his eyes. I go down to ground with him and put my arms around him and cry onto his back. I can feel him tense up. Oh crap! Marcus must have beat him last night. That jerk.
I pull back a stand up. I pull back and stand up. I need to be alone for a little while. I tell them that while they try to calm Toby down. I'm walking for about a minuet when I feel a pain in my heart. I fall to the ground. My eyes are still open. I hear Christina yell "TRIS!"  And that is all I remember before I take in a breath and exhale one final breath.
                          
Okay I'm going to update in a little while!