Chapter 52

                                    

                                          
HARRY P.O.V
                          
"How could you sit thru dinner and not tell me anything." 
                          
"I-I was trying find the right way to tell you."
                          
"There was no right way you could've told me that my daughter is at the hospital." I can hear her desperation in her voice.
                          
After the second call I received my world stopped. Liam had called to tell me that Maddy had gone into cardiac arrest and It took me a while to tell Selena because I was trying to find way to tell her with out risking the baby but she forced it out of me and so I told her.
                          
"I know and I'm sorry but I was just trying to be careful I didn't want to hurt the baby." 
                          
"You could've calmly ease the news to me . I don't know but you should've told right aways!"
                          
I just nod and apologize. I don't want to make things worse then they already are.
                          
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Selena is the first to get out of the car as soon as we stop at the hospital entrance. 
                          
Louis is the first she sees and goes to.
                          
"Where is she? Please take me to her now."
                          
"Sel please take a sit." As soon as I lock eyes with him, I know whats coming next.
                          
"Maddy was sleeping when it happened, Mariana went to wake her up but she didn't. She called us and when I got upstairs I checked her pulse and I realized she wasn't breathing, Mariana called 911 and they told us how to preform cpr on their way here they kept trying but it didn't work because it was too late we've arrived minutes after."
                          
Selena's screams snaps me out of what I thought was a dream.
                          
"No! Please no. Not Maddy!" 
                          
Mariana makes her way to her sister who's inconsolable and falls on her knees.
                          
"I'm so sorry sister I was meant to protect her and I didn't. I failed you, I failed Harry and I failed her." 
                          
"Stop!" Selena grabs her sisters hand pulling her up with her. "As much I wish I could blame one of you so I could discharge all of this pain I'm filling on someone but I can't because I know that this is no ones fault and I don't regret leaving her in care of all of you because you didn't give up on her." 
                          
"We got them to give us time for you and Harry to say goodbye, they've kept her on a ventilator but you know.."
                          
"Take me." I speak for the first time since we've arrive. I reach for Selena's hand.
                          
"Harry I don't think I can do this." 
                          
Hearing how broken she is my heart breaks x2 and all I do is hold her.
                          
"We're going to be fine, we have to be fine because we still have a little one that depends on us, this baby depends more on you than anybody else." I rub her belly that's starting to grow. "Maddy wouldn't want you crying and suffering because of her. No parent ever wants to go thru this but we are and we have no other choice but to say goodbye to Maddy in the way she would of liked, goodbye it's not even the right word because we're not saying goodbye, she'll always be in our heart and someday when it's our time to go will meet with her again and the baby that you wish you would've given a chance to is no longer alone and you know what Maddy's is lucky because now only she'll know if the baby is a she or he and what they baby would've looked like down here." 
                          
She looks up at me with her puffy red eyes.
"Please don't ever leave me.."
                          
"Selena you are the mother of my children, my wife and the love of my life, so as long as I am alive I will be with for better or worse, I will never leaver your side."
                          
She turns to Louis.
                          
"I want to see her."


                          
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A/N:Hey guys I'm back it's been a little more than a month but I was going thru a difficult time in my life, my grandpa past away the 28 of February and after that I couldn't focus on anything but him and lately I haven't found my inspiration to go back to writing so I took this little moment that I felt like writing I think i did better than I would've of done if I forced my self to. I know it's short and my writing is still not good and my lack of descriptive sceneries and their fellings is bad. But like I always say I'm still trying and working hard. I've stopped writing my other books and deleted them to focus just on this one but That didn't last long because currently I'm starting to write another one at a slow pace but I'm working hard on it and I'm doing the best I can to be more descriptive and plan everything well but that doesn't mean I will just keep lacking on this one to focus on the new one. Like I said before and always say at the end of each chapter I WILL TRY HARDER! The next chapter will be better and longer! I also want to thank those new readers and the ones who keep voting or voted but a special thank you to the ones who are still with me since the beginning Thank you babes! 
                          
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