Chapter 4

                                    

                                          
I run.
                          
I keep running refusing to stop.
                          
Chris keeps calling my name but I just ignore it and keep on running.
                          
"Tris we need to talk about this!!!" she says out of breath.
                          
Eventually Christina stops chasing me, but I still don't stop. I don't know where I'm going, but I will know once I get there.
                          
Soon I find myself at the football field.
                          
This is where I stop. I see a bench right next to the field and I go and sit on it.
                          
I almost kissed Tobias. I sigh, I shouldn't have run off, it will just make things more awkward between us. 
                          
Stupid
                          
I think to myself. 
                          
Why did I run away? He loves me. I should have told him who I was. 
                          
I am Beatrice Prior and I am in love with Tobias Eaton. I will be dauntless, and I will be happy. And most importantly, I will be with Tobias Eaton. I don't know how, but something inside of me is telling me I will. Me and him have had a lot of times together good and bad. Like the last day I saw him before he " died".
                          
^^^^^^^flashback^^^^^^^^
                          
Today is the day I will tell Tobias my feelings about him. I hope he feels the same way about me. I don't want things to be awkward between us, but I can't keep pretending I only want to be his best friend, when in reality I want to be so much more.
                          
I am sitting in the field by our house watching the sun go down, when I hear someone walk up behind me. I don't have to look to know who it is. It is Tobias.
                          
"Hey" I say not daring to take my eyes off of the sunset.
                          
"Hey Bea" he says back while sitting next to me. We are closer than normal.
                          
I put my head on his shoulder and say "isn't it beautiful?" 
                          
"Yes it is,just like you" at this I look up at him staring into his beautiful ocean blue eyes a little longer than I should be, but I don't care.
                          
"we could do it you know, take off live in the woods" he says.
                          
"They'd catch us"i reply 
                          
"Who? Marcus?" I cringe at his name.
                          
"He doesn't care about me- nobody does. I mean he tells me every night when he beats me and I don't deny it because I know it's true."he says sadly.
                          
" Tobias Eaton that is a lie and you know it!" I yell.
                          
"Stop playing, nobody loves me, nobody would care if I died right now-" at this I jump up and yell
                          
"TOBIAS EATON I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU AND I KNOW THAT LOVE IS JUST A SHOUT INTO THE VOID AND THAT OBLIVION IS INEVITABLE, AND THAT WE'RE ALL DOOMED AND THAT THERE WILL COME A DAY WHEN  ALL OUR LABOR IS TURNED INTO DUST, AND I KNOW THE SUN WILL SWALLOW THE ONLY EARTH WE'LL EVER HAVE" and then I say quietly " and I am in love with you". A tear slides down my cheek. 
                          
I can't believe what I just said. I don't regret any of it.
                          
He stares at me wide eyed and stands up. We are extremely close. I know exactly how much space is between us:
                          
6 inches
                          
5 inches
                          
4 inches
                          
"Tobias!" Marcus
                          
" I have to go" he says. I nod my head staring into his eyes. He leans in and kisses me on the cheek and walks away.
                          
That was the last time I saw him.
                          
^^^^^ end of flashback^^^^^^^
                          
I feel a tear slide down my cheek at the memory. I sigh and wipe it away for it only to be replaced by more tears. I finally stop, and let them fall.
                          
Tobias and Beatrice had a spark.
                          
But I'm not sure if Tris and Four do. 
                          
I feel a hand on my shoulder and am shocked when I look up to see Tobias.
                          
He sits down next to me and asks "why are you crying?" The words escaped my mouth before I could stop them " boy troubles" I blush and look down. He realizes he is a part of the problem.
                          
" look, i'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that back there. It's just, you reminded me of an old friend." 
                          
"friend" I asked laughing. 
                          
"Well, we were best friends but I love her and never got the chance to tell her that. She told me but I couldn't get those three simple words out."  He sighs. "What was her name?" I ask already knowing the answer.
                          
"Her name is Beatrice" he says.
                          
"You really loved her didn't you?"i ask.
                          
"Yeah I did, I still do, but I don't know if I'll ever see her again." He says.
                          
There is a long silence between us. It's not awkward but comfortable. Then I say it-
                          
"I love you" It's now or never I think to myself.
                          
"What?! we just met today!" 
                          
I stay quiet for about a minute before saying, "we should've left when you said Toby, we could've made it out there in the woods. It would've been beautiful watching the sunset every night. Together. We could've been together. No one there to bother us."i say, my eyes closed the whole time.
                          
When I open my eyes, I can't believe what I see.
                          
Haha cliff hanger!!!!!!! Don't worry I won't leave you guys hanging for long. Don't worry I'm not an Eric.
                          
O MY GOSH!!!! INSTEAD OF CALLING THEM CLIFF HANGERS IT SHOULD BE CHASM HANGERS!!!! THATS WHAT I WILL CALL THEM!!! CHASM HANGER!!!