[22]

                                    

                                          
✱Elsea's p.o.v✱
                          
These past weeks I have been trying to push back my feelings for Ezra but it just won't work. I get this feeling in my stomach whenever I'm around him, and I know it's bad. He's like the forbidden fruit that I just have to taste. Mom thinks I should go for it but it's just so risky, I could lose my job. But at the same time, I could lose a lot on not dating him too.
The thing that bothers me is that I have no idea how he's feeling, I know that he held me that night when he accidentally slept over, but we haven't talked about it. I'm sure he knows what happened but I guess we're both afraid. Wait, isn't that a sign? Wtf am I doing, why am I not his yet? Co-stars, right...
                          
"Earth to Elsea" Olivia says and waves her hand in front of my face and I shake myself back to reality.
                          
"I'm so sorry, you were saying?" 
                          
"I was asking what's up with you? You've been so damn distant these past few days" crap, she realized. In reality I didn't think I could be able to hide it from her since she knows me inside out. But I can't talk about it here, we're in the school cafeteria and as the public person I am I can't talk loud in public.
                          
"Come on" I drag her to the nearest empty room I can find down the hallway and lock the door after us. Olivia gives me a look saying go. "I have a little bit of a dilemma I would call it. You know Ezra? Yeah I'm kinda in love with him or something like that but I don't know about him" I blurt out and she looks startled before she smiles.
                          
"Ezra Jackson, as in your co-star?" She asks, I nod and run my hands through my hair. "I knew it! He's so damn hot Els! You should totally go for it"
                          
"People keep telling me that, but I could lose my job! My dream job that is" I sigh and she laughs at me.
                          
"If you look at it that way it's never gonna happen anything between you two. Just go out and live a little. The worst thing that could happen is that you'll have to hide your relationship but you'll work through that" she pulls me in to a hug and I exhale. She's right and I know it, but I'm just not daring to believe it. 
                          
My phone makes a sound meaning I get a text. It's from Ezra.
                          
"Speaking of the devil" I say and she wiggles her eyebrow, and for that she earns a smack from me.
                          
"What's he writing?" She says with excitement and I give her a look.
                          
"I'm picking you up after school and we're going out. Grayson is gonna take care of your car, don't worry" I read the text out loud and she smirks. 
                          
"Olala. Do it, just text him back saying you'll go" she starts but I'm already on my way out "and end it with a heart" she shouts after me with a laugh and I ignore her with a small chuckle. 
                          
✱ ✱ ✱ 
                          
"And where have you been missy?" Mom asks as soon as put my foot in the house again. It's nearly 8pm.
                          
"Out with Ezra. Dad knew that" I say simply and she instantly lights up.
                          
"Oh did anything happen between you guys?" She smiles and nudges my shoulder. 
                          
"No it didn't. Because I didn't allow it" I say and start to walk away but she takes my arm and drags me towards her again.
                          
"Wait Elsea, there's someone I want you to meet" suddenly a middle aged man comes out from the living room and smiles lightly at me. He's been here the whole time and heard everything?
                          
"I'm Tim, nice to meet you" he shakes my hand firmly and I realize that I definitely recognize this man.
                          
"I'm Elsea"
                          
"Darling, this is my new producer who's gonna help me with my new music. He's awesome at music, I promise you" mom states and Tim chuckles slightly.
                          
"Wait, you're Tim Bergling, the former DJ Avicii, right?"
                          
"You cracked the code. You're right" he laughs and I smile big.
                          
"I love your music. Your songs are great to work out to" I chuckle and Tim thanks me "but now I have to go study, wish me luck and have fun down here" 
                          
[~~~~~~~~] 
A tribute to Tim Bergling, 1989-2018, dead April 4th. You may not be with me, but you'll always have a special place in my heart ❤️ 
PEACE ✌🏼