Bully Loves The Victim // FOAH part 3

                                    

                                          
A/N can people give me one shot suggestions. If you have any, please feel free to dm and I'll mention you. 
                          
Over the next few weeks, people have started to become suspicious with me. Especially Millie and my group. We was all sat at our usual table at dinner, Millie staring at me intensely and the group giving me strange looks.
"What?"
"Its you" Millie replied bluntly.
"What about me? What have I done now?"
"Being nice to Loser" Gaten told me.
"And? He's a nice kid"
"You like him?" Millie asked me with huge eyes.
"I don't like him as in I want to fuck him. I like him as a friend. He isn't bad when you get to know him, he has a lot of the same interests as me" I shrugged. "If you cant handle me liking Finn then you aren't my real friends"
"We only asked because the whole school is suspicious about you. That's all" Caleb explained.
"I'm just friends with him, okay!" I huffed out and continued to read my book. Did I like him, just as a friend? 
                          
I was at Finns again and we wasn't doing anything except staring at each other. The light hit his face which lit everything up, I could see little freckles scattered on his face and the big brown eyes sparkled. He was perfect. Millie is perfect too. I can't like Finn, I can't. I know I am bisexual but I'm with Millie and I like Millie,but I couldn't get Finn out of my mind. I saw a small smile creep on his face and he looked down.
"No. I want to see those beautiful eyes" Am I leading him on? Surely not? 
"They aren't beautiful Noah. They are just plain and boring"
"I don't think they are. They are the most prettiest eyes I've ever laid on" Millie has beautiful brown eyes too.
"You think?"
"Yes." I blushed and so did Finn, it was the cutest thing I have ever seen. Millie was the cutest person I have ever seen. 
"You can't say those things"
"Why not. They are true"
"You have a girlfriend" he said quietly. It was true, I was dating Millie. Millie was beautiful and perfect and so was Finn. I don't have to choose do I?
"And?"
"You should be saying those compliments to Millie. Not me. I don't deserve them"
"What?! You do deserve compliments Finn. You deserve the world in my eyes." Was I falling for him?
"No" what was up with him? He deserves the world. "Can you go home please?"
"Not until you tell me what's wrong?" 
"I can't. I just can't tell you" 
"Please" 
"No Noah. Please. I'm sorry. Can you leave please?" 
I sighed a "Oh, I'm sorry.." and stood up and collected my stuff and walked to the door. I took one last look at Finn and disappeared out of the room.
                          
I sat down on my bed and falling back, looking up at the ceiling. "I don't like Finn do I?" I asked myself. It was annoying. I haven't given one compliment to Millie since I got with her but I gave them all to Finn. What was happening? People were already suspicious about me and Finn and now they going to get suspicious even more." I can't like him. I have Millie" I told myself.
"I can't keep giving him compliments, I can't keep telling him how beautiful he is. Can I?" I sat back up and sighed before screaming. 
"DAMN IT!" I knew I was bisexual so my sexuality wasn't a problem, the problem was liking both genders at the same time and dating one.
I came to the conclusion. I liked Finn. More than Millie but they can't know about that. So I suggested that I was going to end it with Millie.  
I grabbed my phone of the night stand and found Millie's Instagram. 
                          
NoahSchnapp: Hey Millie. I need to tell you something.
                          
MillieBobbyBrown : Yeah, what's up Noah?
                          
NoahSchnapp: I don't want to be with you anymore... I'm sorry.
                          
MillieBobbyBrown : What? Why? What have I done? This has something to do with Loser doesn't it?!
                          
NoahSchnapp : No! I just don't feel like I'm ready to be in a relationship anymore... I said I'm sorry.
                          
MillieBobbyBrown : No! This has to do with Finn. You like him don't you?!
                          
NoahSchnapp: NO FFS Millie!!
                          
MillieBobbyBrown : Okay. Fine. I'm sorry. Bye Noah.
                          
Millie Bobby Brown has blocked you. 
                          
I sighed and layed back on my bed, falling to sleep with the thought of Finn in my head. 
                          
The next day I was stood at my locker getting my stuff when Gaten shoved me into the side and folded his arms. I frowned at him and carried on doing my stuff when he spoke up. 
"You broke up with Millie?" Gaten asked me with a disappointed look. 
"Yeah. And?" 
"I thought you liked her?" 
"Yeah I did. I just don't want to be in a relationship right now." 
"Is this about Finn?" 
"No."
"Right okay." Gaten replied with his hands in the air out of defense. Me and Gaten were walking to English, I was a little excited because I was sat next to Finn but also a little upset because Millie will be in the same class as she got moved down. I don't want to face Millie because I know she will attack me. I sat down in my correct seat and smiled at Finn. 
"Hey." 
"Hey Noah." he seems a bit off. 
"Are you okay?" 
"Do you hate me?" he asked me out of the blue. 
"What. No?!" I furrowed my eyebrows. "Who said I did?" 
"Millie..." I turned around to Millie who was staring at me, I gave her a death glare and turned back to Finn who was looking down at the floor. 
"No. I don't hate you Finn. I like you." 
"As a friend?" 
No. More. "Sure. I care about you and I'm sorry for the past too. I want us to focus on the future and not the past yeah. And don't listen to what Millie says, she is just upset I broke up with her" 
"You broke up with her?" 
"Yeah. Last night" I saw a little smirk even though he was still staring at the floor. I wanted to see his face, with the freckles and large brown eyes. I put my thumb and finger under his chin and lifted it up so I could see his face. He had dried tears on his cheeks, so I wiped them away. I didn't care if I was class where everyone can see us, I was doing this for our relationship and not to make Millie jealous. 
"Noah..." 
"Shh. I don't hate you okay."
"Are you su..." he was cut off by my lips pressing on his. I squeezed my eyes closed hoping Finn kissed back which he did immediately. I didn't care if I was in a room where everyone could see or that I lied to Millie and Gaten about me and Millie's break up wasn't about Finn. It was. It was all about Finn. And I can't deny it. I like him. 
No. Scratch that. 
                          
I'm a bully who fell in love with his victim.