[twelve]

                                    

                                          
Jungkook's POV
                          
4 weeks after
                          
Today is so awesome and fun. 
                          
Riding with my friends with our motorcycles moves so fast on the road. I'm gonna miss my buddies. I'm gonna be leaving tomorrow because I have to go back to work. Last week was more exhausting. My eyes were so burned because of me staring directly on the screen of my laptop. I'm really tired. I hope she's here to say goodbye. But, why would I expect that? After all, I'm the one who left her. It's my fault. I think I should go apologize but it'll make my heart hurt more. I don't know what to do or what to say in front of her. Maybe I'm not ready yet.
                          
"Hey dude? You all right?"
                          
I looked behind and saw my friend Taehyung. I'm happy that I'm here with him and my other friends. I'm gonna miss his ridiculous laughs. I'm gonna miss our memories here in Thailand. I'm gonna miss Lisa.
                          
"Yeah...I'm alright."
                          
"Still thinking 'bout Lisa? Why not tell her now?"
                          
I frowned.
                          
I don't know how I'll explain all of it to her. I know she's hurt right now because of the words I said to her. I...I called her a d-douchebag.
                          
"Can't. And won't."
                          
"Why not? This is your last chance."
                          
"Now's not the good time."
                          
"So when?"
                          
I covered my face with both of my hands and sighed. I don't know. I'm really a jerk. I shouldn't have left her there. I really hope someone helped her. I'm not just right for her. We both are not for each other. We're not meant to be together.
                          
"Bro...I just wanted to ask something."
                          
"Mm...what is it?"
                          
"Do you remember a girl you kissed on a beach?"
                          
My eyes wide open in shock.
                          
"What?!"
                          
"Yeahh..."
                          
I closed my eyes and tried to remember everything. I didn't knew I kissed a girl on a beach. I know I've never kissed anyone! Now my first kiss is gone! And it should have been....Lisa? Wait, still I don't know who the girl was.
                          
"Who's the girl?"
                          
"Uhm....t-that...uh...it-it's....mm.."
                          
"Who? C'mon tell me."
                          
"J-j-jennie."
                          
"WHAT?!"
                          
I noticed that my friends saw me shouted. 
                          
I mouthed a 'sorry' then I looked back to Taehyung.
                          
"Bro, I'm really sorry. I-I-I didn't m-mean to."
                          
"No no no it's fine."
                          
"Gosshh! I'm such a d-bag!"
                          
"Hey you're not."
                          
"Yes, I am."
                          
I covered my face again. I stomped my right feet because of anger. I'm sooooooo out of control!! Why's this happening to me?! Gosh! 
                          
"Did L-lisa knew?"
                          
"T-that......I don't know."
                          
Gosh. I really am a jerk. Why did I even drank Soju?! I know that I'll just get out of control. I shouldn't have drank it. 
                          
"H-hoe many b-bottles?"
                          
"F-five?"
                          
"OHH MHAYYYGHAASH!!!!"