Chapter 4

                                    

                                          
I went home, not wanting to go back into the studio ever. 
"I want to quit" I say while talking to my internet bestie, Tayla. 
"It would kill your brother" 
"I knowwww" I whine while getting up to see who was making noise out my window. 
"Lil? You still there?" She says to me 
"ya I'm here but they're home and Josh is here too...Harry looks..he looks very sad, I got to go he's gonna want a band meeting. ugh" 
"Ok girl text me later ok?" 
"Ya of course, love you bye." I hung up the phone and wash away the tears. I put on a sweatshirt cuz I was only wearing my bra. 
"LILY COME HERE" I hear some one say..but it wasn't harry. I go to open my door but first I take off the sweatshirt to only wear my bra when going down to meet them. 
"What do you want?" I say all of them turning around, Niall Liam and Louis turn back around when they see I was wearing sweat pants and my bra, Josh smirks and tries to hide his fresh boner, Harry gives me a death glare. 
"Harry it's my house too I will wear what I want to wear, what do you need?" "Actually I wanted to talk." Josh says "Ok let's go to my room then" we walk upstairs I close my door and before I could say anything he has me up against the wall kissing me, leaving a trail down to the hem of my sweat pants. I grab his shirt and rip it off him. Kissing every inch of his toned body. *KNOCK KNOCK* 
"Lily? Josh? It's Harry" 
"Ugh" while Josh gets his shirt on I open the door, he looks hurt and disappointed when he sees Josh has lipstick on his face 
"we're dating and it's not just a fucking stunt because I quit" I slam the door in his face and push Josh back on the bed. 
"What did you just do?" Josh asks. 
"Kissed you, and I'm gonna do it again" I respond. 
                          
*The next day* 
I woke up next to Josh, hearing his quiet snores made me feel at home. I get up and grab some clothes and go to my bathroom without locking the door. I get into the shower and step under the warm running water. Soon feeling a cold hand on my back. I look over and see Josh naked, joining me in the shower. After we had our shower fun we both went downstairs. Harry was in the kitchen. I walk over and grab some waffles for us and put them in the toaster. 
"Really you had a shower together?" "Harry what the fuck is your problem?!? You fuck Louis constantly! Ya so what I fucked Josh so what I cut myself so what I quit!" 
"Lily, Lou and I are different..I hate how you cut and I hate that you quit you're the best songwriter we've had. And please stop calling me Harry it's Haz" 
"no. Haz is my brother and you're not acting like my brother...how is you and Louis fucking different from Josh and I?" "I'm sorry ok you're my sister...I don't want you to get hurt...I don't want that for you.." 
"Haz please let me live my life...Josh I and are dating and you're gonna have to accept that. And as for me and self harm I'm gonna struggle with it my entire life, it's no secret but I'll come back to work.." 
"I love you" 
"I love you to" we hug it out. 
"That's why I don't step into their arguments" our mom says to Josh. 
"Uh your mom knows we fucked now" he mumbles into my ear. 
"ya she probably heard it too, you're not exactly quiet" I say while kissing him.