You can't get in my head I hope you heard it clearly the first time

                                    

                                          
The wrecks I don't like you 
                          
You can't get in my head
I hope you heard it clearly the first time
                          
//suicidal thoughts//
                          
When I dragged myself out of bed the next morning my parents have already left for work. Usually I see them just as they are leaving but today I didn't. I did wake up half a hour late but when I went downstairs for a drink before my shower they was gone. Maybe they had to go in early. I open the fridge just staring blankly at the food. Do I really want to eat? What's the point of eating really? Theirs nothing here I want to eat and I only force myself to eat because I need to to survive. I don't even want to live so why do I eat? If my immune system fails because I'm not eating then I'll just die faster. That's what I want. I take one more look at the food in the fridge and close it. 
                          
When I walked into class close to half a hour late Jack was sitting in my seat next to Rian and Zack. That's my seat. Thankfully their was still a seat on Zack's side but I like to sit between both of my friends. I slump down into that seat basically throwing my bag on the desk to alert everyone to my entrance.
                          
"Let me copy the homework?" I whisper to Zack. 
                          
"Okay."
                          
I wasn't even in science five minuets before they was a knock on the door with a note for me to see the head master. 
                          
"Great." I mumble packing up the science work I was actually doing but leaving my half completed homework on the desk with Zack's, I wasn't finished copying it.  
                          
"Good luck kitten." Jack whispered so only I could hear, I punched his shoulder as I walked past him to leave, that was a wanting.
                          
I crumple the note in my hand and walk down the familiar corridor just off of reception, down here is where the councillors offices are as well as the staff room, the staff toilets and the head teachers office. Students aren't allowed down here without reason and why would they want to anyway? Once I reach the end of the corridor I shove the note in my back pocket before knocking on the door. 
                          
"Come in." Mr Gunning said, I push open the door wondering what my punishment is, "Take a seat Mr Gaskarth."
                          
"What is it this time?" I ask probably coming across a lot more rude than I intended to, I'm just frustrated.  
                          
"Suspension." He knew I knew why I was being punished and decided to just get this over with as quick as possible, "Until Monday."
                          
"For the swearing or the ditching?" At least it's only three days. 
                          
"Both and for attempting to damage school property."
                          
"I wasn't trying to break the table." I argue but he doesn't say anything, "Can I go now?"
                          
"I'm going to call your mother to come pick you up."
                          
"Oh she's going to be so mad at you." I laugh, "She hates to be disturbed at work unless it's a emergency."
                          
"Well this important."
                          
"I don't think her hearing that her depressed son got suspended again is important enough to warrant not getting mad." Mr Gunning is one of the few teachers that know about my depression, that's why he deals with my punishments not any of the other teachers, when I got diagnosed my mum requested that a little people know as possible, when I started acting up Mr Gunning knew why and decided to take matters into his own hands. 
                          
"We can still offer you counselling if you wish?" Mr Gunning may be the best teacher in this school but he is dumb. 
                          
"No."
                          
"We still have to call your mother."
                          
"Fine." I shrug, "Am I allowed back in class until she comes?"
                          
"If you want." 
                          
"I do."
                          
"I'll send someone to collect you when she shows up."
                          
"Thanks." I stand up leaving not waiting to be dismissed, Gunning wouldn't care anyway. 
                          
I shut his door and drag my backpack along the floor as I make my way back to science. When I open the door everyone's in groups talking, so I'm not heard opening the door. A few people see me but it's not until I sit down the teacher does. 
                          
"You alright?" Rian asked sensing my change in mood from earlier. 
                          
"Suspended." I shrug acting like I don't care when really I do, "Till Monday. Gunning is going to send someone to get me when my mum shows up."
                          
"So not until lunch at least." 
                          
"Yep." I say as the teacher hands me the worksheet we was doing, when she turns her back I start to copy answers.
                          
"Can you stop being so horrible to Jack?" Zack asked me, "He actually thinks you're pretty cool."
                          
"Oh." I shrug not caring, "Tell him to listen to me then."
                          
"What do you mean?"
                          
"Probably with him calling Alex kitten." Rian said and I glare at him, "Yep it's that."
                          
"I think it's funny." 
                          
"I don't." I say scribbling in a random answer, "Where even is Jack?"
                          
"Bathroom."
                          
"Okay." 
                          
I'm content with sitting in silence while Zack and Rian talk but I knew it wouldn't last long. As soon as Jack sat down I knew I wouldn't be at peace no longer. 
                          
"How'd it go?" Jack asked as he sat down, I just put my head on my desk completely ignoring him, I expected him to say something else but I was instead left alone. 
                          
Thank god. 
                          
Jack decided not to ask any more questions even when I sat up normally and finished copying the work down. I can tell he's curious. He wants to know what it was about but he's not asking. I like that. 
                          
"I was suspended. They are going to come get me when my mums here." I tell Jack, maybe if he realises I actually like him when he respects my privacy he might start to do that. 
                          
"How long for?"
                          
"End of the week."
                          
"That sucks." Jack said, Rian and Zack where looking at me weirdly. 
                          
"I get time off so it's cool." Okay maybe Jack isn't that bad. 
                          
Authors note
                          
I have not left my room all day and I want to die. Anyway what are you thinking of this so far? How do you think Alex and Jack's friendship is going to progress?
                          
Just comment anything because it really helps me work out what people do and don't like. 
                          
Anyway today should be Tuesday when I post and I have a job interview tomorrow. I also have a few chapters prewritten. 
                          
Hugs, kisses and peace ✌🏻