The Lessons Pt. 3; Seokjin

                                    

                                          
       I squeeze my eyes closed as I feel him hit something so good deep inside me that it makes my head dizzy and want to cum so bad. I've never been this far with any of my boyfriends so this is all new to me. I honestly didn't expect it to feel this good. It's shocking and makes me regret never giving it a chance before. 
      "Ahhh....N-Namjoon!" I cry out but try to muffle it by his shoulder. Our chests are pressed together as his hand moves between our stomachs to stroke my aching erection. This is too much as his other hand continues to press his fingers even deeper to tap that bundle of nerves once more.
     Not being able to hold it a second longer I release a loud moan and cover both of our stomachs and his hand in cum. Gasping for air, I sink my body back onto his lap and try to catch my breath. Embarrassment finally hits me and I bury my head back into his shoulder to avoid meeting his eyes. God...that was...
     "Jin?" His voice is soft almost musical like in the quiet.
      I bite my lip. "Mhm."  
     "Was that alright? Did I hurt you, are you ok?" He asks in concern. Ever the picture of calm. I do nothing for him. I don't know how to feel about that. Does he ever get turned on? Like, really? If so, I wonder what makes him lose control? Curiosity fills me but I keep quiet. I doubt he'd tell me anyway.
     After a while my body finally calms and I slowly climb off his lap, realizing I'm naked from the waist down. I didn't think about the fact that I've been sitting in his lap naked while he's still clothed. Blushing, I throw the blanket over my legs and sigh.
     He settles back against the pillows beside me and turns his eyes on me. "How did that feel? Are you still uncomfortable?" 
     I let my muscles slowly un-tense and think about it. Putting my shyness aside, I really think about the experience and how it made me feel. At the time he was making me feel so good I didn't care about anything else. It was amazing. I wasn't overthinking or dying of embarrassment. It was nice.
     "I l-liked it." I finally say after at least five minutes of silence. 
      He nods beside me. "That's good, Jin. Can I ask you a question?" He suddenly asks.
     I nod, curious. 
     "Do you even want to have sex with me? Is this experience with an escort more to satisfy your need to end your self inflicted virginity or more to cater to your need to please your future partners? As in sexual experience for them or for you?" His question is mature and complicated and completely appropriate to ask in the scheme of things.
     I hadn't thought of it like the way he posed it but I suppose both works. I do want this for me-to finally claim myself a man-no longer the innocent virgin to be mocked...but I also never want to be dumped for sexual inexperience again either. 
    I purse my lips in thought. Trying to think of how to answer his question. "Both, I guess. I can't really explain it. Why do you ask?" 
     He smiles a small polite smile. "Well..." he hesitates for a moment. "If you could tell me which more your leaning towards, it will make my job and your experience much easier. Am I going to mostly be pleasing you sexually or am I going to be teaching you how to please others?" 
     I frown. "I guess...the latter. I want to get more experience-any experience really-on how to keep a boyfriend. I know sex is important in a relationship and I want to push past my shy insecurities if it'll help me keep a partner." I blush. Hating feeling so exposed.
     He nods. "What do you want to know? Would you like me to teach you how to give a handjob, blowjob? Are you needing directions will positions? I want you to lay it all out for me so I can have a plan-an itinerary-if you will." 
     I suppose that makes sense. "Ok. I'd like to...g-get my first time over with soon. Afterwards maybe you can teach me something new everyday until our contract ends? I, uh, don't really know what exactly to ask for so I'll give you the reigns and let you guide me." I admit, hoping my answer helps.
     He nods thoughtfully. "Would you like to continue on to intercourse tonight?" 
     I press my lips together. "Yes." Why the hell not? I'm already paying him so I might as well stop being a big baby and get it over with. I'm doing this for a reason. 
     His eyes widen with surprise and I realize he didn't think I would. I'm glad I surprised him as I hate being predictable. "Very well. Are you ready now to pick up where we left off?" 
      Swallowing hard, I nod. 
      As soon as he gets the signal, he's on me. I'm pushed down onto the pillows while his lips and tongue work against my throat, sucking hard on my jugular as the blanket-my safety net-is ripped away from me. My thighs instinctively wrap around his torso while his hands work between us to grip my growing erection, playing with the tip. 
     "Ahhh...." I gasp but he swallows my other moans, tangling his tongue with my own in a shockingly dominant stance that leaves me breathless and very aroused. Usually I hate it when my past boyfriends got demanding and forceful but for some reason I trust Namjoon. I feel safe and know he won't hurt me.
     My fingers tangle in his hair as he lifts off me to discard his shorts revealing his masculine nakedness that makes my mouth dry. He is so handsome and perfect. I refuse to let self consciousness ruin this, though, so I push my inner insecurities aside as he returns between my thighs only to hold up my hips, slightly bending me and making my legs fall somewhere around his stomach.
    I open my mouth to ask what he's doing but only moan when he forces my cheeks apart, gathering up saliva and letting it drip down onto my hole. He then pushes two finger back inside me, thrusting them in and out, stretching me.
     It stings a little but he's careful and I breathe through the pain. Eventually he pulls them free and glances up to meet my eyes as my body drops back down and he begins to stroke his own length. My body tenses in anticipation but I don't put a stop to this, don't let myself ruin it as he grabs a condom and slowly-oh so slowly-begins pushing inside me.
     He stops every couple of seconds to check my face and progress. I hold my breath as he finally presses the rest of the way inside and feel his hips pressed against my cheeks. Oh my god! I'm doing it! Finally I'm having sex! 
     With this in mind, I give him a huge smile and he returns it as he falls over me, lacing our fingers together as he begins to make short thrusts into me.