IV. Dark Past

                                    

                                          
Note to you guys, the one in Italics are the flashback.
                          
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Since I reconciled with my brother, Chris niisama was the one who taught me how to read and write. The language and alphabet here are different from what I knew in my past life and with niisama's help; I can quite understand some of those dizzy letters and words.
                          
Having a brother is really amazing. No words can describe how happy I am to be with my handsome niisama.
                          
As days goes on being together with Chris niisama, I can't help but reminisce my past life. What kind of life I had before and if I am close with my past family.... 
                          


                          


                          


                          


                          
"Okaasama I want hug!"
                          
"I miss my okaasama. I miss my otousama. I miss my brothers and sisters; they don't play with Miu anymore"
                          
"Why they hate me? Is Miu being bad?"
                          
I don't understand why okaasama never look at me after we meet the man in white. I don't understand *sniff*
                          
I don't understand why the people around me, look at me with those scary eyes. I don't know anything, I am just a kid and I am not big enough to understand about what I do wrong but all I know is that they hate me. They hate me because of the man in white, why? *sniff*
                          


                          


                          


                          


                          
I am too young to understand everything. I don't know why they all giving me the cold shoulder, a disdain look like I'm some kind of trash that looking at me might hurt their eyes. I am too young to understand everything but all I knew is that they hate me and I don't understand why
                          


                          


                          


                          


                          
I heard from the maids that I have a new elder sister. I am so happy. My other siblings don't play with Miu anymore so maybe my new sister will play with Miu.
                          
But why every time I ask my new sister to play, she also looks at me with the eyes everyone gave me.
                          
I bit my lips to prevent the tears from flowing and ask my new oneesama, "Is Miu a bad girl, neesama?"
                          
She just looks at me with cold eyes and behind those eyes are the looks that I hate.
                          
Why? Did I do something wrong?
                          
Promise, Miu will be a good girl. Miu promise will be an obedient girl... please don't hate Miu
                          


                          


                          


                          


                          
Since my sister arrived, my parents give her the loving eyes that I dreamed of. They gave her everything but they don't give me even just a look.... a look without disdain, without a scorn look until one day, I learned the reason why