Chapter 19 (Unpredictable Feelings)

                                    

                                          
Zayn's POV
                          
"Hey, Don't worry, I'll not do anything to make you feel bad." I comforted her.
                          
"No, I mean I trust you." she smiled and stare at the wall.
                          
"I heard that you had a boyfriend before?" I asked her.
                          
It takes a moment of silence and a few minutes she sigh and speak.
                          
"Yeah, my best friend told me about him, but she never continued either my parents because it will hurt him more when I told him that I don't remember him so the only way is we have to leave Bradford and continue my life." Cge stated and a sad face draw on her.
                          
"I'm sorry, but did they told you about his name?" I curiously asked and felt some hope.
                          
"Yes, my best friend spill it. He's name is Zain also, same as yours but his spelt Z-A-I-N." I was in shocked. Really?? Now I have that confidence to make her know me little by little but now I really don't want to tell her that that was the true spelling of my name.
                          
"Wow! that was really nice." I told her and faked smiled. I just really want her to know that I am her boy but this is not the time.
                          
"Honestly Zayn, I feel comfortable around you like Niall, but I felt different about him and different about you." she stated and I went red.
                          
"What do you mean?" I curiously asked her.
                          
"I'm sorry I really don't understand yet my feelings." She told me.
                          
"Yea, honestly I really like Niall. Something like I really wanna be with him every seconds of my life." She added and I felt my heart breaks into pieces it really does hurt.
                          
"Niall is very kind person, you know? He is comfortable with. You're very lucky to have him." I can't believed for what did I said.
                          
"Yes I know  about it, but when I met you, I felt something that I really can't explain something that I've know you before, like I'm really comfortable with you as much as Niall." she spill out her feelings. Wow! thanks God, her heart never forgets about me.
                          
"Jess, I felt same way about you, but I don't want you to hurt Niall, he loves you more than everything." I honestly told her, yes even if I love her to death I really can't take it hurting my mate who is very kind to me ever since.
                          
She stare at me then suddenly kissed me on the lips. I was shocked but I recovered easily and kissed her back, it was long and passionate kiss. I asked for entrance and she grant it our tongue twirl smoothly, and our lips move in sync. After the long kissed we broke apart catching for our breaths. Wow! how I really miss that kiss from her.
                          
"Oh, I'm sorry Zayn, I really don't know what I am doing, I just wanna have answers to all my curiosity. I just did it coz I felt it right I'm sorry." she pleaded and bow her head.
                          
"No, it's okay. I just wanna help you too." I lied.  
                          
"Thanks Zayn, just consider it as a friendly kiss?" she said  more than a question rather than statement.
                          
"Uhh, yes." I hesitate to answer back It really hurts me more knowing that she consider it as a friendly kiss only.
                          
"By the way do you have a girlfriend?" She change the topic.
                          
"No, I haven't. I'm still looking for her, I mean I'm looking for the right girl." I was slid up with my answers but recover rapidly.
                          
"Oh, that's nice Zayn, choose a girl who wants you for who you are not only for you're fame." she held my hand and advises me.
                          
"Thank you." That's all the words I speak out.
                          
Suddenly Louis was shouting from behind the door knocking.