~18~

                                    

                                          
Anthony's POV (yes again)
                          
Two months later
                          
I did my best to calm down. Jas and I strolled down the street. She seemed unfazed by what we were about to do.
                          
We got to The Public and walked in to Lin making a speech while standing on a table.
                          
"We've prepared for this day for months. Now we have a couple hours so here are some rules. No dairy. Drink tea. Try not to make any super loud noises." He listed a couple more rules.
                          
"Ok let's rest up and prepare for our first performance!" We all clapped and walked off in our separate ways. 
                          
Everyone was extremely nervous. Well except for Jas. Jas could have been going to a normal rehearsal. I wished I could be like that.
                          
——
                          
With only an hour to go before the performance, most of us had decided to start to get ready I ran to my dressing room and put on my John Laurens costume. (I know he probably has more than just one costume per character but here it's just one per character.) 
                          
I then left Daveed and Oak to go to my girlfriend's room. 
                          
I walked in the dressing room to see Jas sitting alone in her Peggy dress. She was staring off into space with wide eyes. Her breaths were shallow and quick. Almost like she was hyperventilating. She's having a panic attack. Ok remember when Steph had panic attacks. What'd you do? (I've never had a panic attack. I'm just going off of what I've read in other stories.) 
                          
I ran to her side and made it so she was looking into my eyes.
                          
"Deep breaths Jas. In. Out. In. Out." I said. After a couple minutes of this, her breathing went back to normal but then tears came.
                          
She broke down crying. I hugged her tightly. 
                          
"I'm just... so nervous... Ant." She said between sobs. I rubbed her back, comfortingly. 
                          
"You'll do fine!" I said.
                          
"No!" Jas responded. "What if I mess up. The whole cast'll hate me. Lin'll probably fire me. I could mess up on that note in Say No To This. Or I could trip during Helpless. Or-" I interrupted by kissing her. When she pulled away she smiled at me. 
                          
"If you mess up, you won't, but if you do, the cast won't hate you and Lin won't fire you. You haven't messed up yet on that note and I'll be with you the whole time during Helpless." I did my best to address all of her fears.
                          
I spent the next forty-five minutes with Jas. We calmed each other's fears, lead ourselves through breathing exercises, and sometimes we just cuddled. Then Jas went off to talk with her Schuyler sisters and I walked around the boys' dressing rooms. 
                          
I walked into a room and saw Leslie lying on a couch on his phone.
                          
"Hey... Um... Les?" I asked. He looked up.
                          
"Yah?"
                          
"Are you gonna get ready? We have ten minutes until the show!" He smiled.
                          
"Naw! I only need five." He said. I shrugged and left to go talk to the cast.
                          
——
                          
"ONE MINUTE." Someone yelled. I ran to take my place with happened to be right next to Jas. (Because plot conveniences) 
                          
Jas and I bounced up and down together. We ran through some more breathing exercises. The music started and Leslie started to sing. I kissed Jas quickly and held her hand until I had to leave.
                          
——
                          
Thunderous applause filled the theater as we took our bows. The curtains went down and I ran up to Jas. (They haven't told the fans that they're dating btw.) She kissed me.