A/N:
Aye, before you guys read this chapter. I would suggest you guys to listen to "Iris" by goo goo dolls but covered by Sleeping with sirens. For extra feelings. or the link on my bio, it'd be easier but idk. Then you guys can start hating me lol (twitter: sIflniall)
Calum's POV
I curled up into a ball and closed my eyes shut. Alesia isn't my friend, i kept convincing myself. My feet were shaking and it was starting to get colder and colder just by every second. I can do this by myself, I whispered again and again. My conscience started telling me how stupid I was and that I should just call Alesia. But pride started fighting back. I grabbed my phone and started searching through my contacts, I texted her 'Sorry' , how sincere Calum, how sincere. I pressed call and placed the phone on my ear.
"Are you ok?" Her voice was shaking, worry and confusion was present in her voice. Here i found out that whatever I do, Alesia will still be there for me. She would understand. I had this feeling that we were going to be inseparable- that is, if I continue opening up to her.
"A-Al, can y-you come b-b-back please?" My voice started shaking too, but more than hers. I was so hot yet felt so cold. How bad is this fever? My whole body was shaking and my nose was clogged. I swallowed hard before I heard her,
"C-Cal? Calum? Hang in there ok? I'll be on my way- I'll be over, I'll be back. J-Just, Just hang on Calum."
I blacked out, all I could see was black. All black. Nothing.
Alesia's POV
I paced faster. My palms were sweaty and damn, I was worried. What could've happened to that monkey? I came to a stop on their front door, I struggled with the door but good thing I forgot to lock it, I'm a horrible person. I ran to the living room and went straight to the couch where Calum was on.
"Calum. Cal, its-its me. Alesia" I pushed the hair that was covering his face away, his long fringe was all messed up and his long bangs were untidy as well. "Hey, come on wake up" I touched his forehead, it was hotter than it was a while ago.
"Hey, Calum" I leaned in and started to stare at him again, god what is happening to me? He was making soft whimpers in his sleep. Must've been having a bad dream. "I'm here Cal, I'm here. I won't be leaving" I smiled at him. This boy has got this huge effect on me and I really don't know why. Calum had this soft side that, I guessed no one had ever seen. I just really think that there was something in the past that was making him act like this, maybe he was happy as a kid. But i needed to find out more.
He started whimpering like a kid having a nightmare, he was sweating so bad too. He shook his head 'no' and few tears started falling from the corner of his eyes. He was crying. I wiped the tears on his cheeks, leaving dirty stains.
"Hey, Calum", I whispered and started smiling, "Open up to me ok? I'm here, Cal. You can wake up now. You're not alone, I won't be leaving you. I'm here. Its Alesia." I repeated again and again. I was sitting on the floor and staring at him. I stood up to look for his medicines but I was stopped.
"St-stay", I actually thought he was calling after me but when I came to look back at him, he was still crying in his sleep. "D-Don't leave," he whimpered. Being the sherlock I am, I went to sit back on the floor and started listening to his words.
"B-best friends don't leave each, each other" I wasn't sure if what I heard was right, but this was what I heard from Calum. He started gasping for air, he was crying so hard. As much as it amazed me to know guys like Calum would cry, I hated it. I hated seeing him like this. He looked so helpless and alone. That was- because he isolated himself from people. He tried to stay tough and badass as possible. He tried to hide his soft-side and move on from his past that haunted him all the time.
"D-dad... M-mali" He started whispering again, all this guy needed was company. I needed to figure this boy out.
"Alesia..." My head shot up at him when I heard the mention of my name. "Don't... I..."
My heartbeat went fast, eager to know what he'd start saying. I stood up and crouched down to him and wiped his tears with my thumb, "I hate you Calum" I smiled to myself. How could he do these things? I've always been distant to boys, I've never talked to one as long as this.
Have I been to clingy on Calum?
Was I annoying him?
Did I mean something to him?
What was he supposed to say?
Why did he mention my name?
Questions started filling my head and I was eager to find an answer to all of those, all of it. I needed to find out everything. One thing for sure: Calum meant something to me, he meant a lot to me.
Aye guys, I don't wanna confuse you or anything, but the Calum here is the fetus cal on the "in my head" cover they did before, that's the 18 year old Calum here lol thanks
I'm so fucking sorry ily all. And sorry for the super duper late update and sorry for the long super duper long wait x
