I wanted to find things out about Calum, I needed to know who he really was. I mean who he was inside, why he isolated himself, why things don't matter to him so much and why he didn't like the word 'bye'. I needed to make him open up to me. But he's making it so difficult.
"Hey Cal" I walked over to his lunch table. It was Monday, great way ruin his day. I wasn't able to sit beside him in classes because of asshole Steven. He looked up at me with a straight face, no expressions written just plainly Calum. "You look pale" I managed to say as I sit across from him.
"Why are you here?" He said flatly
"Do you have to ask me that every time I sit here? Get used to it" I rolled my eyes and nibbled my sandwich.
"I don't want you here" he said again. Calum was hard to understand. One day, you'll be friends and the other is that you'll be complete strangers but sometimes you'll end up being best friends or just simply a classmate who he walks home. He won't tell me why he's acting like this and I'm not going not going to make that last anymore longer.
"Look, what the heck is your problem with me? Why do you need to be so monotoned and so ignorant? What is wrong with me? Can't you just be appreciative for once and thank me for giving efforts of trying to be your friend, because I don't see anyone else do the same thing. I don't know what the heck your problem is Calum but I've been trying to find out. The only thing is that you're making it so difficult!" I let out everything that came into my mind. I got up and slung my bag on my shoulders and stormed off to the hallways and into the comfort room.
I hate the fact that I'm so mad at him right now but still wanted to make a move and go back there and sit and just talk it over. Of course, I would look stupid. Of course, he wouldn't care. Of course, he hates me. I don't even know what to do anymore. I don't have any friends here, I don't even know anyone else but him- excluding Steven. I thought Calum would be a friend. But I was wrong. So damn wrong that i feel so stupid.
My feet decided not to listen to my brain and just move by itself, I walked out of the comfort room and peeked my head on the doors to the cafeteria. Calum wasn't there, I knew it. He must've been confused or he's just being the asshole he is.
Calum's POV
I zoned out. Completely zoned out. I didn't know what to say nor do. I was at the middle of telling myself to run after her and stay where I was. I wasn't going to let myself open up to a girl again, no way. She's a transfer, she transfers from one school to another because of her parents' job. Of course I was going to encounter the separating thing again. And no one wanted that. But then the thought of what Mali told me came to my mind, she was right, sooner or later I had to move on from the past and continue on with my life. I was making myself miserable. Fine, I'm going after her. I silently made a promise to myself that whatever happens, I wouldn't be too open to her and tell her everything. Specially the separation and the girl bestfriend thing. I'm going to keep that to myself.
Now, the problem is...
Where the hell did she go?
Alesia's POV
If Calum won't look for me, then I wouldn't look for him either. But damn, we share the same classes so I couldn't avoid him. Not a chance.
"Alesia?" A voice echoed through the empty hallway of the third floor.
The voice was familiar but I do hope that no one else sounded like him. I hope he'd say sorry and change his mind. I hope its him. I hope its Calum. I shut my eyes and slowly turned around, I slowly opened one eye and sighed in relief.
He walked towards me and dug his hands inside the pockets of his pants. Its weird how Calum looks so innocent when he's wearing the uniform, he looks so cute and student-ish. "Hey" He sighed while looking down to his feet.
"What?" I asked a bit too harshly, I wasn't really meant to do that but my stupid tongue made a stupid decision. He looked a bit taken aback so I really do regret that.
"About, awhile ago I was just-"
"I know, you don't want a friend. You're better off alone, you can do it by yourself, you don't need anyone else and you don't need more people you have to prioritize-" I didn't notice I was already ranting until he snap me out of it by chuckling and ruffling my hair. What's going on?
"You learned a lot" he smirked
"Duh, you say it all the time how can I not remember?" I mumbled to myself, that wasn't meant to be heard.
"Look, i just, I don't know if I'll ever be a good friend to you. I really, uh, don't know how to act around girls. I might mistreat you. You get what I mean Al? I don't think that I'm that guy friend that you expect" he shrugged and looked around the halls, "I just think I'm not worth it"
"Stop it Cal. You're totally worth it and I promise no matter who you'll be, we're still gonna be friends. I won't give up on you, Calum. You know that." I looked at my hands and that's the time I realized that I had a tight grip on the bottom of his shirt.
"No, I'm not-"
"Don't start a fight with me here, Hood" I put my left hand on my waist and pointed the other at him.
"Fine" he shrugged and walked away, walking towards our next class. "Do not follow me"
"We share the same class monkey" I rolled my eyes and smacked his head playfully.
"Hey!" He stopped on his tracks and pouted at me, his brown eyes staring back at mine.
"Hey to you too" I rolled my eyes and walked past him. I swear I heard him mumble 'i swear she can earn a world record for rolling her eyes too much' but I shrugged it off. I sat on my normal seat with Calum beside me. He was acting different though, I don't know what made me think that but he just does.
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This chapter sucks I'm so sorry! Ok so I haven't been updating bc I'm freaking busy, so I can't write much :( but I'll try my best ok? Ok. I hope you don't remove this from your libraries though- you won't right? Right. Lmao ok so I have a lot of things going on atm and its hard to do them all together so I hope you guys'll understand and bear with me- or bare, I'm confused with this shit I'M SO SO SO SO SORRY! ILY ALL X
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