Chapter 19: The Rebound

                                    

                                          
Song: Eleanor & Bellami
Artist: Powfu 
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☆Blake's P.O.V☆
I'm sat at the picnic table outside the front of the school, with a cigarette secured in between my fingers. I watch as everyone makes their way inside while I wait for Kenzie to get here when I see Olivia walking by with Alyssa following beside her. I want nothing more than to be in Olivia's spot right now, walking with Alyssa through the halls, hand in hand.
It's been almost a full week of not talking to Alyssa. She hasn't texted me or even tried to contact me in the last few days, and I can't lie and say it's not killing me on the inside. I've had a lot of time to think back on how I was acting lately and I wish I would've just listened to her. I realize that now after she stopped reaching out. 
This past week has been a blur. I feel numb like I'm nothing without Alyssa. I've been trying to distract myself with the same girl from the party, but it's not the same. I have since then, found out her name is Kenzie. She's honestly not a bad girl, but she's not Alyssa. Kenzie has recently told me that Cody was the one who sent her over to talk to me. He didn't tell her why, he just said I needed a distraction. So she did as told, not thinking it would lead to what it did that night.
On top of that, my mom got my father to sign the divorce papers this week. I was really surprised he signed without causing an issue. But he was pissed about the window thing... I can't blame him though. I was going to offer to pay for it, but first of all, I don't have a job, and second, he kind of deserved it.
I haven't told Kenzie about the whole thing with Alyssa, or I'm sure she wouldn't still be hanging out with me. I don't feel great about how I've been using Kenzie as an attempt to forget about Alyssa. Every now and then we'll kiss or even make out, but I don't feel anything when we do. There's been a couple of times I've seen Alyssa when I'm with Kenzie and I'll purposefully kiss her, in hopes that Alyssa would see. Yeah I know, I don't know what I was thinking at that moment either.
To me, Kenzie is just a 'rebound', if that's what you even want to call it. To her, I'm honestly not sure what this is. I was never the type of guy to play around with other people's feelings, I've always found that the shittiest thing to do to someone. Yet here I am, trying to make Alyssa jealous while I'm with another girl who I have no feelings for whatsoever. 
When Alyssa notices me sitting here, I watch as her once, calm and content face, changes to a mix of sadness and anger. I can't take my eyes off of hers, no matter how badly I want to look away. I watch as her eyes flick to the cigarette between my fingers and then back to my eyes.
I'm knocked out of my trance when I feel a presence to my left. Looking over, I see Kenzie. "Hey." She says sweetly.
I give her a small nod, flicking an ash onto the ground. "Hey."
"How was your night?" She asks me, fiddling with the sleeve of her jacket. With a shrug, I think back to what I did after I got back to Cody's, which was nothing but moping around like a sad piece of shit. 
"Not bad." I mumble.
"Do you wanna come over tonight?" She asks, looking up at me with her big brown eyes. 
"Yeah, sure." I give her a small smile. I don't even want to go over to Kenzie's, but my days are spent sitting around doing nothing or partying. God, I'm pathetic.
The first bell rings and she stands up, reaching her arms out to pull me up. I toss the cigarette to the side, clasping our hands together. 
"Walk me to class?" She asks, leading me towards her classroom anyway.
"Mhm." I hum, looking down at her. She's a lot shorter than Alyssa, I could use her as an armrest if I really wanted to. 
We continued walking in silence until we made it to her classroom. "Thank you." She smiles up to me, before pulling me down to give her a quick peck on her lips. I nod, turning around to make my way to my science classroom.