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A couple of days later and I was thankfully out the hospital. My leg injury is still healing but it's getting better than 3 days ago. I mean, I'm limping my way everywhere and it was really hard at first considering that the accident happened recently and I couldn't walk because it hurt like hell. But I'm good. 
                          
As soon as I stepped out the entrance, cameras flash and they were all desperate to get a fucking shot. Expected.. I sighed. Jesy stood beside me and Leigh distracted some of them. Oh how thankful I was that these two are my best friends. Jesy's bodyguards surrounded us and blocked the paps so that they can't get anymore closer. You see, times like this, I just wished I had a normal life. Away from the spotlight, and not seeing yourself on the news, magazines, tabloids and all that stuff every single freaking day. Because you know what? Some of them are just pure bullshit. And you sit there, pissed, asking why they wanted to turn your whole life into a story. 
But I mean, what life I have is also great... I loved what I did and I didn't have to deal with other problems in life. I feel happy whenever I see my fans happy, the ones supporting me. I'm more than grateful for everything that I've achieved and done. 
But of course, this is where the problems come in. Even though some say my life is perfect, it's really not. It's a hard life. You just got to get used to it and live. 
                          
I was about to get in the car but what I just felt made me froze to where I'm standing. I feel like someone was staring at me, almost burning a hole in my head. So I turned around and searched. There were a lot of people blocking the view so I couldn't look around clearly. But then there were a pair of very familiar eyes, blue eyes. I saw it somewhere in the crowd. It disappeared and now I saw a glimpse of blonde hair, not just any blonde hair, but hers. How'd I know? I had memorize all her features and I didn't even knew it. But anyways, back to the scene, I swear it was her. But why is she here? 
                          
Stop it Jade. Stop it now.
                          
There are thousands of people with blonde hair and blue eyes. How are you so sure it's her?! 
                          
"Jade!!" Jesy yelled at my ear. I snapped it of it and muttered a 'sorry' then got in. 
                          
It's impossible. It's not her, it couldn't have been. 
                          
Or is it?
                          
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Drops of sweat trickled down my forehead. I decided what I would do to all the things I kept that involves Perrie. As I gathered all of it, one by one, I remember what it all meant to us, to me.
                          
All the pictures, the letters, the gifts, the stuffed toys. 
                          
I went to a nearby lake. Good thing not much people go to this place. I sat beside the body of water. Stuff toys are the ones I decided to dispose first. 
                          
Bambi.
                          
Pikachu.
                          
Olaf.
                          
Minnie Mouse.
                          
Perbear.
                          
Smiling like a idiot, then frowning as I let go of them one by one in the water. They slowly drift from sight as the darkness fill in. 
                          
Pictures.
                          
There were hundreds of pictures we took. We placed it in a scrapbook. According to us, it would be useful someday in the future. But is this the future?!? I took a single photo and folded it so I can shoved it into my pocket. I placed the scrapbook above the water and It sunk, never to be seen again.
                          
Letters
                          
I've always loved how she make these letters for me. It's sweet and cute. I still remember her handwriting, so neat and delicate. How she would sneak it into my bag. I chuckled lowly. 
They all mean so much to me. 
                          
Let go Jade.
                          
My head keeps telling me. But there was just this feeling inside of me that didn't want to let go.
But i did, and all of it was gone.
I took a deep breath, stood up, hung my head low, and walked away.
                          
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Couple of weeks later, the iHeartRadio Event came up. I was performing and so was Perrie. First time in about 2 months, I'll see her. Wow, 2 months huh? A lot has happened.  Things will get awkward, bla bla bla.. But she probably won't even care that we're at the same event because she has her new man. 
                          
The car I was in started slowing down at the entrance of the place. My driver had opened the car door, waiting for me to step out. 
                          
There's no turning back now.
                          
I stepped out and camera flashes were all over the place. Others were yelling my name. I just wanted to perform already. And skip this whole thing.
                          
I marched my way through and found myself greeting other celebrities while they greeted me. I didn't want to seem sad even though i totally am, so fake smile, here it comes. After posing for a few pictures, when i say few, I mean hundreds, and moving forward through the red carpet, there she was. Still looking beautiful as if nothing really happened. Her classy dress was simple but she made it look extravagant. It perfectly hugged her curves as she walks. Her smile reached her eyes, her arm was delicately clinging to his. I felt jealous, of course. A very familiar feeling called pain. I averted my gaze and it met the floor. 
                          
Not now. Not in here.
                          
I tried to stop the feeling but every second passed it just grew more. The Performance, yeah, that's what I should be thinking. I was going to perform my recently released single, "I don't wanna know" with a few other songs like "Your Love" and "How would you feel" from my previous albums. 
                          
After mini interviews and a lot of  fake smiles, I didn't expect what happened next.
                          
"Hi, Jade.. Been a while, eh?" 





                          
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So i finally updated. 
                          
Sorry for making y'all wait. School work got me busy and I just didn't find enough time to update sooner. But here ya go and have a good day/night wherever you are! :)