Chapter {04}

                                    

                                          
[Camila Cabello]
-Dance Practice {04}
                          
What hell is my life?
                          
Dont get me wrong, Ive had a crush on Lauren since the X-Factor. I still do. And now we are together but it just feels akward and wrong. I love her with all of me, I give her all my heat but inside I can tell she doesnt love me. 
                          
Like the interview? Bullshit.
                          
What happened to the days where we were best friends and she could tell me anything? Now she seems so distant and its sad. I grew extremely close to Normani when I needed someone and Lauren wasnt there. But I would give anything to have her back.
                          
Who wouldnt? We are at the dance studio. Dinah and Normani look so happy together. Ally looks envious though. Im betting she likes Normani. Poor thing. Its because of thef ans. they created this! The idea that we arent free to chose love.
                          
I really want to hate the idea, I do, but I cant. Looking at Lauren, I know i love her. And if its forced love its better than nothing. I can act oblivious but Im not. Not that helpless. You just dont realise how much it hurts to love someone who will never love you back. 
                          
Laurens eyes find mine and I smile. Thats the best part of her. Those shinny emeralds. Ive always been entranced by her eyes. Sometimes they can even look different. Like blue waves of the ocean or a grey storm. Its so cool!
                          
My attention turns back to Dinah and Normani. They are talking quietly. Kissing every now and then. Allys head is about to blow and Lauren looks as if she couldnt care less. Shes playing on her phone absently.
                          
With a sigh I turn back to the love birds. Dinahs stare as her gaze fixes on Normani is like gold. I want Lauren to look at me like that. To look at me as if Im the only one who can make her happy. After all, thats all I want to do.
                          
"Normani how long have you been dancing?" Asks Lauren.
                          
She shrugs. "A while."
                          
"What types of dance can you do?"
                          
"Most. Im better at hiphop though."
                          
Dinah raises an eyebrow. "Hiphop? Ive always wanted to learn that!"
                          
Normani smiles. "Okay I'll teach you." She puts her ipod on the speakers and turns on Yonce.
                          
"I'll go first and you watch."
                          
Dinah nods and Normani grabs the baseball cap off Dinahs head. She pouts but Normani kisses her, making her smile. 
                          
"Ready?"
                          
Normani begins to dance. I stare at her, transfixed. She dances amazingly. Her hips move in perfect time. Ive seen this dance before. On youtube. Vanessa Hudgens was a guess star or featured or whatever on a video for this exact dance. Normani puts her to shame.
                          
When shes done she pauses the music. "Okay?"
                          
Dinahs jaw drops to the floor. "Know anything easier?"
                          
I get up from my spot. "Common D, its not that hard." I do a flimsy impression of Normani.
                          
They both laugh. "Well your cant be any worse than that." Normani says.
                          
Dinah hugs her. "I'll leave the dancing to you."
                          
She gives her a small kiss. "Alright fine."
                          
I glance at Lauren out of the corner of my eye. Her face is expressionless. One thing I hate about Normani and Lauren. They are the best at hiding their emotions. Except at the moment Normani is open about love but still. They always have this mask that is so intimidating. Kind of makes me want to avert my eyes. 
                          
Her phone vibrates and she looks down. Hmmm...