Ch.22

                                    

                                          
"So you don't remember any of it?" Shizuo asks me. I shake my head. "No, I remember there was a lot of red.. and some white? Why is that?" I ask him.
                          
He picks up one of my arms making me flinch, it's very painful. "Do you know what happened to these?" He asks me holding my hands.
                          
"U-uh.." I try to remember, "blood.....blade....red.....cut....hurt.
I can remember bits, but not really" I tell him.
                          
"You cut them" he says. 
"I cut them? Why would I do that?" I ask him confused.
                          
"Ha,  you tell me" he says sighing. 
" the hospital are calling it a suicide attempt" he says.
                          
"Suicide?" I ask, I just don't understand. "Never mind that, I'll explain later, I brought you your clothes but for now-"
                          
Two very energetic kids run through the door and run to either side of the bed.
                          
"Mairu?...kururi?" I say. These are my sisters if I remember right. "Iza-nii what happened?" Mairu asks.
                          
"Uh..I don't quite remember.." I tell them. "Mairu..this happened before remember?" Kururi tells Mairu.
                          
""Oh...it's that sort of thing..." she says sadly. "Please get well soon" they say at the same time.
                          
A nurse rushes hen out of the room telling them I need rest. Then she turned to Shizuo, " you can take him home later but I still need to run some tests, can you leave until then?" 
                          
"Yeah, sure" Shizuo says sadly. And he exits the room. She walked over to me and sat down.
                          
" I need to change your bandages okay?"she said. I noodles as she lifted my arms and undid the bandages.
                          
I looked down at my arms and it all came back to me, that night, Shizuo told me he loved me...but pushed me away.
                          
I knew he didn't love me, not really. No one could ever love me. "Sir are you alright?" 
                          
I was pulled out of my thoughts by the nurse, then I noticed the countless tears running down my face. 
                          
"O-oh. Yeah I'm fine" I tell her wo a smile as I wipe away the tears. She bandaged my arms back up and sat me up.
                          
"Well your physical state has improved, you've been here for quite a while now so you could probably go home tomorrow" she said with a smile.
                          
"O-okay, can I have my clothes? Shizuo said he brought them" I say. 
"Ah, yes I'll get them for you now" she says leaving.