•Alexanderos POV
at the time of Esmaraldas death.
All this time my fists were open. The sand from my hands had slipped and me, I didn't even realise it was slipping away. The raw smell of soil hit me in my gut hard, my lungs feeling suffocated, I felt sharp blows on my head, then my body and I fell down. Can't put her in this. Can't. My head felt heavy, I couldn't breathe. As if my vision was snatched from me, nothing made sense. My hands moved slower, they felt lifeless.
The once colorful world now appeared colouress to me, she was the colour to my world. Was? My chest closed up again, contracting violently, my wolf howled in pain, nails shifting into claws, whimpers leaving my lips. Monster. My wolf whimpered, snarling at me. My vision was crammed up with blotces, I wecomed the blindess, my hands shaking. Little bones. Her little bones. My hands shivered as I held the red cloth in my hand, stained with her blood. I dug, deeper and deeper and I knew it was time to let it go. The shovel fell from my hands at this time I broke down hysterically.
"What is it that you have on your hands fiamella" "Alex" her voice was gentle as she smiled shyly, a gentle blush creeping up her cheeks. "Show me Esmèralda" "ok. You don't have to trap me between your hands like that ok" a gentle smile played onto his lips. She brought her hand from her back, a small feathery thing lay on her palm. "What is this" she lowered her head, her hair falling onto the side of her face gracefully. Her smell hit me for the thousandth time like a god damn wagon and I breathed in like a greedy wolf I was, my wolf basking in her scent. "It's a dream catcher. My father gave it to me when I was little, I always had bad dreams. You've been dreaming about the war a lot lately and I wanted to help-" "fiamella" my breaths were laboured, our faces too near. "Don't you need it more than me?" She smiled without hesitation. "No. As long you hold me, I fear nothing else. I know you'll protect me. Even when I'm asleep"
A scream escaped my lips for the thousandth time. "Esmèralda" a whisper escapsed my lips, my voice chocked, I couldn't complete the sentence my speech was incoherent. Please. Someone please tell me it's a lie. Tell me she's just sitting near our bed with her hands around her legs waiting for me to come back. My world was closing up upon me, the smell of the soil and the open grave made my soul shiver with pain.
Her scent hit my nose, lathered with the irony smell of blood. I felt my heart burn with pain. The body fell from a high altitude and hit the ground and smashed against it.
The animals might ate her remains or have eaten her while she was still alive.....
A scream escaped my lips, my mother put her hands around me. "Stop. Stop Alex" my chest heaved with pain, her hands on it moving along, my wolf howling with desperation, running around in circles, trying to tear to the surface. Red. It was stained with blood. The blood of my mate. I held the cloth to my chest, falling on my knees, my face hitting my knees.
Her smell hit me in my gut, my wolf biting onto the surface, tearing me with spin and shifting back to skin form....it was nothing compared to the pain I gave her. Nothing. Her face kept flashing in my mind. Her sweeet innocent smile. Her drugging kisses. The way she held onto me and melted in my arms, her wolf feeling the most protected......
The cloth in which her remains were wrapped fell from my hands. My wolf hated me, fighting to tear to the surface, nails biting into my skin as the rain poured into my flesh wounds. This is what it must've felt like for her, the rain poring on her wounds as the animals ate her. My gut clenched in disgust, I didn't deserve to live anymore. Her grave lay open in front of me, my tears fell onto the soil, the rain hiding them. Her grave. My body shook with pain. "I can't" "Alex! You have to finish the ritual! You have to burry your mate" "I can't"
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Fantasy* MAJOR EDITING GOING ON* What happens when two very different souls crash? When Esmèralda Domanaive, a beautiful and innocent 17 year princess is taken as a prisoner in her own castle after the war, she is forced to make choices that crush her in...