Bethany Deyes, the youngest of the Deyes siblings, and the sibling no one really knew about.
Bethany wasn't a fan of the YouTuber life and in order to stay out of the spotlight that was about to be pointed in her brothers direction, she goes to boa...
Today is a hard day. A type of day that looms over you like the rain. It's a feeling I could live without.
Today is the day Joe leaves for tour.
The past month with Joe, bouncing back between living with him and coming back to Brighton was hard. In the end we decided it would be best if I moved in with him, for the remainder of that month at least. But is it so incredibly strange that Joe's feels more like home than my my own home ever could?
They weren't kidding when they said that sometimes home is just a pair of two arms wrapped around you.
But what's home when it's going across the world?
"Joe, we gotta go." I say quietly by the door of our room. he looks up to me and nods his head, zipping up the suitcase and lifting it off the floor to stand up. I take in the boy before me as he walks towards me, reminding myself of the way he looked and how I wouldn't get to see that beautiful face for three months.
I feel him place his hand into mine as we walk down his hallway and into the car he called. The ride was silent, music playing in the background as Joe rubbed the back of my hand.
The ride to the airport felt like a million years but it also felt like it couldn't be any shorter. I wanted my time to last with Joe but at the same time I knew it was coming, I anticipated this car ride and I was waiting for it to finish.
"We're here." The driver says and I smile tightly, stepping out of the car as Joe does the same at the other side, opening the trunk to pull out his bags. I look over to the entrance and see Caspar standing there so naturally I go to follow him.
"Hey Caspy." I say and he smiles.
"Hey Beth, how are you?" He says and I shrug. What could I say to this boy?
"Horrible. If I'm honest but I'm incredibly excited for you and Joe. It will be amazing." I say and he nods.
"Yeah I'm so excited it'll be a right good time." Caspar says and I smile tightly, something I've been doing a lot today.
"Hey Casp. Lets go?" Joe says as he reaches us and we nod, walking into check in as Joe keeps his hand in mine. Caspar tries talking to us, but it's no use, Joe and I are in a very obvious bad mood, which I hope will go away for Joe. I can stay depressed all I want but Joe can't. He has viewers to meet and carpets to walk. Joe has such amazing things to accomplish and I'd be the worst girlfriend in the world if I let him continue this little depressed act past this moment with him. He could be as depressed as he wants while he's with me, about to leave but not with viewers and people who would try to move heaven and earth to meet him.
"Tickets?" I hear one of the security person ask and I watch as Joe and Caspar hand over their boarding passes whilst I stand there. "No one who isn't traveling can go beyond this point. Sorry." He adds and Joe looks at me. I smile tightly at the security guard and gently remove my hand from this and moving to Caspar.
"Have an amazing time." I say then pull him into a hug. A quick one then after a second he pulls away.
"I'll take care of him to the best of my abilities, Beth." He says and I nod, grateful for the promise Caspar made, despite the fact that I wasn't even sure that Caspar could take care of himself.
I move over to Joe and he smiles at me, a fake smile but still one. It was like I could feel my world shifting from suddenly having Joe around me constantly it was like I knew I had to re-evaluate my life, try to figure out how to live without him. It's like I couldn't even remember how to do that.
"I'll miss you but we'll facetime all the time and it'll be okay. Maybe I can come to a show or something. Three months won't be that long, Suggy." I say trying to optimistic even if it didn't feel like that. I know for him the three months will go by in a breeze. He'll be busy and doing so many things but not me. I'll be here, waiting for my boyfriend to return. That sounds depressing, I know but right now I was very much sad.
"I love you Bethany Deyes." He says as I bring my face closer to his.
"I love you." I say and put my lips on him, tears beginning to fall down my face as our lips move in sync before I pull away.
"You have to go." I say and he sighs, clearly not wanting to.
"I don't wanna go." He says and I shake my head.
"Joe Sugg you have viewers to meet. You are going to do amazing things." I say and he nods and I pull away, letting him straighten himself up.
"Bye Beth. I'll text you before I take off." He says and I nod.
"And text me when you land. I love you." I say back.
"I love you too." And with that both Caspar and Joe turned around and walked into the rest of security leaving me behind.
I idly walk through the crowds back to the car and silently, without music this time the driver brings me back to Joe's flat as I don't tell him to do otherwise. Hours feels like minutes as I arive to the flat andI thank the driver quietly and step out of the car, pulling out the flat keys and opening the door. The flat suddenly feels insanely empty as I walk the familiar hallways and into Joe's room. I remove the clothes I went to the airport in and slip on my favorite MTV shirt of Joe's and walk to the bed, lying on it.
Not long after my phone pings with a message:
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I sigh as I read the message, like the distance was growing between us. I pull one of his pillows from his side and hug it, letting the familiar scent of Joe put me to sleep.
AN: Hello! I'm sorry I took a little bit of a hiatus and I'm sorry that this chapter is soo depressing. I was in the mood to write something sad. I hope you all liked this chapter. Don't forget to like, vote, comment and all of that and I hope to get a new chapter out soon. Things are gonna start ROLLLINGGGGG.
