Kitchen

                                    

                                          

tw/ massive panic attack, this is a bit heavy but like hopefully not (too, if at all) triggering, just take care. 
                          
start the song: 
                          
Don't Delete the Kisses - Wolf Alice!
                          
Josh sighed contently as Tyler pressed soft kisses to his lips easing him down to lie on his back, the soft pressure of Tyler on top of him the smell of flowers and the warm sun and buzz of bugs filled his senses. The grass he lay on in his backyard was softer than he remembered but he didn't seem bothered. He smiled as Tyler's fingertips brushed over his hips as his lips worked their way down his neck.
                          
"I love you." Tyler smiled and Josh's heart fluttered as he looked up into warm brown eyes. Tyler brushed a stray brown curl off Josh's forehead before kissing his nose sweetly. He picked a pink flower from near by and placed it behind Josh's ear.
                          
Tyler kissed him again, hard and Josh responded eagerly, happiness radiating through his whole body.
                          
But then Tyler's body wasn't on his anymore and Josh opened his eyes to see Tyler looking over him at something. When Josh sat up he turned to see a huge black wolf, it looked just like Tyler and Josh was confused, he turned to see Tyler was gone.
                          
Dread shot up his spine as he turned to see bright red eyes. The wolf was twice the size of before, snarling and growling, drooling as it squared up and charged at him.
                          
As it jumped towards him claws swiping Josh felt his whole-body jolt.
                          
He gasped awake, covered in sweat and already fending off a panic attack. He managed to eventually get himself out of it but promptly burst into tears, that was the fourth time this week that hed had a nightmare, usually they all centred around the same thing - a wolf attacking him, usually spencer. But this was different, this one had been Tyler, the one person who he never thought would hurt him, it shook Josh to his core. 
                          
He was shaky and anxious for the whole day, he flinched as Brendon dropped his lunch tray down on the table. 
                          
"Baby you okay?" Tyler asked putting his arm around Josh's shoulder. Josh melted into his touch, the fuzziness in his chest growing as Tyler pressed a lingering kiss to his cheek and held him close. But then he was remembering how Tyler had laid him down in the grass and made his whole body tingle and he blushed. He nodded, taking a sharp breath through his nose and letting Tyler kiss his lips softly. 
                          
It was a mistake because as his eyes closed and reopened for a second all he could see was his nightmare, Tyler and then no Tyler and then a wolf that was ready to kill him.  
                          
Josh visibly paled and shrugged Tyler's arm off himself. 
                          
"I-I forgot I didn't print my history essay so I need to go do that." He excused himself and Tyler tried to follow but Josh assured him it wasn't necessary. 
                          
The following Saturday Josh hadn't even thought about his nightmares thankfully not having one since, until he woke sweating and panting and feeling like he'd been running for his life even though physically he hadn't moved from his bed. 
                          
He fixed himself a coffee with shaky hands and stared out the kitchen window at the backyard, a sense of uneasiness rising up his spine as he stared out at the yard and tried to separate reality from his mind running wild. 
                          
"I'm going on a date, Mom's gone to work, Jordan went to baseball practice and Abigail's still at her friend's house." Ashley said in passing, stealing the coffee cup from Josh's hands and gulping some of it down. Josh glared at her but she just smiled and handed back the now almost empty cup, patting him on the shoulder before heading out the front door.