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Phil <3: I'm here!
Dan: ok i'm coming!
                          
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          I answer the door and immediately Phil hugs me.  "I missed you so so sooo much!  I love you more than you know!"  He looks at me.  His eyes glossy, I still see the stars in his eyes.  The eyes I fell in love with.  His hair is messy and his clothes are unkempt.  He looks like he hasn't gotten sleep in years.  This is your fault Dan!  If you would've texted him earlier he'd be okay!  I break down in tears.  "I-I'm so sorry Phil."  I hiccup "If I just texted you e-earlier you wouldn't-t have been worried a-and you'd be less t-tired and-" He cuts me of by kissing me.  He pulls away.  "Dan, none of this was your fault it was Chris'."  I start crying just from hearing his name.  "Dan," Phil coos "talk to me about it?  It'll make you feel better."  I nod and tell him everything that happened.
                          
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          "He told you to kill yourself?!" Phil almost yells.  I nod, a single tear falling down my cheek.  "After that, that's all I thought about.  I started writing 'the perfect' suicide letter!" I start crying.  "I starved, but only for about a week.  I cut multiple times a day.  Deeper than usual.  I still do!  Phil!  I'm useless!  I kept thinking you were in love with Chris!  I can't get over my stupid mind telling what I should do to myself!  You helped me so much!  I only cut like two times a week before Chris happened!  I love you so much Phil.  Please don't leave me for Chris." I'm crying into his shirt at this point and I feel like crap.  I look up to see his reaction.  His eyes are rimmed red, his face is wet with tears, and he looks devastated.
                          
          "Dan," Phil says "I will never ever leave you for that jerk.  I swear on my life." He crosses his heart while saying so.  I nod.  "But Dan."  He looks he straight in the eye.  "Please stop cutting.  I know it's hard but, I am willing to help you through thick and thin.  I swear that I will."  I nod, leaning in to kiss him.  I decide to ask him a question.  "Phil," I start, "will you move in with me?"  Please say yes, don't let me down. Please Phil.  "Yes of course, Dan!" Phil exclaims.  "I want to get away from Chris as soon as I can!". I smile for the first time in a month, as I lean in to kiss him.
                          
A/N:  Woah that got happy quick!! yay!  anD 250 reads?! iM DeAD ily <3
xx mak