chapter twelve

                                    

                                          
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Lexi's POV;

 I whimpered as Ryan walked out the door. Why was he leaving me? 

 "Here let's talk, there's a lot to explain" I heard Holly say.

 Furrowing my eyebrows I padded over to the bed before pulling myself up, staring at Holly waiting.

 "Well I think we'll start with being a werewolf and all that crap" she smiled as she sat on the bed next to me.

 Settling my head on my paws I stared at her, I was scaring myself. I was being really calm. I guess being with Ryan just made me feel safer and calmer. And plus I've never known anything about the outside life before I met Ryan. He wouldn't lie to me. I had been blocking out the voice in my head, I mean this was a lot to handle. Ryan told me it was my wolf but to me it was a voice that scared me.

 "Well there's only a few of us around the world, the humans don't know about us so you can't tell them. You'll know which are human and which are were's, they have a different scent. Also we have mates; their the other part of us. They make us feel whole, they will be the person you will spend the rest of your life with. Most wolves usually find their mates when we turn 18 but if you're mate is an Alpha you'll find him sooner." She paused allowing all this to go through my head.

 Humans. Werewolves. Mates. Got it.

 "An Alpha is the main werewolf in charge of the pack, all the other wolves have to obey him. Also when the Alpha finds his mate she will become the Luna of the pack"

 What was a Luna? She seemed to guess my confusion before carrying on

 "A Luna is the Alpha's mate, she will become in charge of the pack but not as much as the Alpha. Understand?"

 I nodded before dragging my head onto the warm pillow. This was so much. Just a while ago I was living with dad being hurt and now I was a werewolf. So much has changed.

 "And finally there's the mating process"

 Eh? 

 "When a wolf finds his or her mate they either mate and stay together or reject each other."

 Would Ryan reject me? I didn't want him to, he was my hero. My prince Adam from beauty and the beast. 

 "I won't go into details about being rejected because that doesn't even happen a lot and won't happen to you. Well onto the mating process. If two mates are madly in love and want to stay together forever they go through the mating process. Basically your mate will bite a place on your neck therefore mating you. They usually do it whilst making love"

 Okay. Mates. Neck. Bite. Mark. Together forever. But making love? What was that? Was that drawing cards that said love on it?

 "Oh you don't know about that"

 I hated I couldn't just speak my thoughts to her, it was helpful that she knew what I was thinking.

 "Well when two people love each other they will make love. Here wait I have a video, this is too weird to explain." She mumbled as she walked over to her closet and came back with a black thing. 

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 I never wanted to see that again! Ever! I rubbed my eyes with my paws trying to wipe the image from my mind, why would people do that? Ewww. Yucky yucky. Ewww. I smacked my head against the pillow trying to make the images in my head disappear. Birds and bees my peanuts. Birds and bees did not do that...that thing. 

 Holly just sat laughing at me, how did she not find it yucky? 

 A growl escaped my mouth as I heard movement outside the door. I pounced on the person as soon as the door flung open, them dropping to the floor with me on top. Glancing down I smiled as I saw Ryan, and began licking his cheek happily. Maybe he could make Holly stop laughing. 

 He laughed as I licked him and then nuzzled my face into his neck, sniffing him. He always smelt yummy. I felt my eyes close as I laid on him, hopefully I wasn't squidging him.

 "Lexi? Lexi come on let's get you to bed" I heard his smooth voice in my ear.
                          
I stood up and ran out of the door and to my room. The door was locked, I kinda left Ryan behind and he still wasn't here. I took a few steps back before running forward, I whimpered as pain shot through my head. Why didn't it open. I tried again and again but it still wouldn't open! I felt dizzy but I wanted to sleep.

 "LEXI!" I heard someone shout. 

 My body flinched and I ducked my head, trying to hide behind a big wall thingy with a statue next to it. It was scary. 

 I poked my head out to see Ryan standing there, as soon as his eyes met mine he looked sad. It was then I realized it was him with the scary voice. What did I do? He told me to go bed and that's what I was trying to do.

 "Lexi come here" he said in a nicer voice.

 What if it was a trick? What if he was going to hurt me like dad did? He sounded scary like dad when he shouted. My head felt hot and sticky, and my eyes were blurry. I must have hurt my head a little. It would be gone soon. 

 A drop of blood fell on my nose, I lifted my paw up to swipe it but fell over. I laid on my back just trying to wipe it off, why wouldn't it work? 

 "Lexi. Come here" I heard his yummy voice really close.

 No! He yelled scary. I jumped up and took a step back, no he would hurt me. Dad always hurt me after he yelled in that scary voice. I didn't want to be hurt. I glanced up at his pretty eyes, I just wanted to run over and hug him.

 But he would hurt me. He would break his promise and hurt me. I didn't want to be hurt. I didn't like it.
                          

'Lexi he won't hurt you. Please just go to him'

 I jumped as I heard the voice in my head. Not again! I didn't want it. I don't care if it was a part of me I didn't want one. I smacked my head off the wall trying to get rid of it but it only made me dizzy.

 "LEXI! Stop it!" Ryan yelled in that scary voice again. 

 I stopped what I was doing and stared at him, his eyes were black and he looked scary. He was going to kill me. Tears pooled in my eyes and a whimper escaped my mouth before I turned around and bolted down the stairs.

 Someone had kept the front door shut so I began to run around trying to escape, people passed in a blur and I saw Ethan and Nate fighting over a little car but ran straight past them. I glanced around and realized I was in the kitchen, I saw the back door was open and ran through it. 

 I was halfway through the field when something pushed me down. I glanced up to see Ryan staring at me. He looked scary. I wiggled around trying to get free; ignoring the tingles but he wouldn't move. I didn't want to die. I whimpered as he stayed there, he promised me. 

 "Lexi please don't. I'm sorry for shouting. I'm so sorry baby. I just didn't like you hurting yourself, you can't do that to me. You have to promise me you won't hurt yourself" he stared into my eyes and I felt myself getting lost in his eyes, they were beautiful. 

 "Lexi promise me"

 I snapped out of my thoughts and nodded my head before licking his cheek. I quickly rolled over so I was off of him and nipped his leg gently before running off. I soon heard more paws behind me and sniffed his yummy smell, he was chasing me. I smiled as he bumped into us making us roll over. 

 I licked his nose and laid my head on under his head and closed my eyes. He was so soft and warm. I fell asleep thinking of his blue eyes and that he didn't break his promise.

 ***

 "Lexi come on, bedtime" 

 Opening my eyes I saw Ryan's body next to me, we were back in my room. I nodded my head before jumping onto the bed, I barked as Ryan walked back to the door. 

 I still didn't want to sleep alone. When Ryan was with me I didn't have bad dreams, it was like he protected me. I motioned towards the bed and Ryan jumped up, laying down. I laid my head on his body before snuggling closer, he was warm and soft. I looked up and licked his cheek before closing my eyes.
                          
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Updated 20th May 2012 enjoy :D