If You Say So

                                    

                                          
Listen to the song as you reach the end of the flashback as I will not add in lyrics but what happens then will go with the song. I will add in a previous warning at when to start listening.
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**NOT PROOF READ**
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CONTINUATION OF LIFELINE 
*Can be considered as Pt.2*
                          
{ Riley }
                          
Flashback
                          
'Pick up, pick up, pick up, pick up, pick up, pick up, please.' I thought as fat tears gushed down my face. 
                          
No answer 
                          
No no no no no no no no no no no, please this can't be happening.
                          
"Hey its your boy James, I'll call back soon if I like you, but don't even worry about it." 
                          
"James baby, I'm so so so so so so sorry, please I didn't mean it. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. Please call me back I love you please."
                          
I know he's at band practise but I really need to explain everything to him. Deep down I know it isn't my fault but he kept saying that it was my choice and I'm starting to believe it.
                          
"Shut the fuck up, stop crying and screaming. I don't even know why I chose you, you're so fucking ugly. You know you want this though, this was all your choice. Let's just have some fun so I can leave.."
                          
I can't get his sick voice out of my head, it makes me sob harder then before b-
                          
"Riles?!"
                          
I turn to see James looking at me with worry, I wonder how he found me hiding inside my closet.
                          
"Jae..."
                          
"Riles baby, what's wrong. Tell me it's okay, nobody will hurt you, come on love tell me what's wrong." he said as he cradled me in his arms while tears of heartbreak and pain flowed down my face.
                          
"Jamie it hurts, it hurts, I lost it, and I lost it to him. I'm sorry Jamie, I'm sorry."
                          
"Baby, what did you lose? Its okay babe I won't be mad." he says that now...
                          
"down.." I whisper barely audible as I look down at my, y'know.. "V.." I quietly said as my voice sounded muffled with my face against his chest.
                          
"Baby did you cheat on me?" he asked as tears gathered in his eyes.
                          
What do I say, I basically did even if I didn't want it but it was my fault just like the man said.
                          
"oh.." he quietly said as he got up walked to the door and said "I do love you" with tears sliding down his cheeks, but then he opened my bedroom door ready to leave "but I'm disappointed in you" he said as my heart broke and I sobbed the hardest I've ever did in my life. Just before he left I yelled out something I would regret my whole life "I HATE YOU JAMES!" and then I heard the front door slam.
                          
It's been two weeks and James hasn't spoken one word to me at all. I haven't gotten my period yet and it was supposed to come last week which scares me shitless but deep down I know what's wrong. 
                          
I go to my mom's room and look in her closest and see a bunch of pregnancy tests she keeps in case  herself, Emily or I accidentally get pregnant, like now..