Jealousy

                                    

                                          
Justin's POV
                          
What the hell is wrong with Selena? First she says that i'm special to her and wants to go out on another date with me and then runs to another guy leaving me behind. What the fuck did i do that made her so jealous? God damn why do girls think guys can read their minds? Why can't she just tell me what i can do to make her feel better and i swear i'll do it in a heart beat. She means so much to me and i can fully be myself in front of her, why doesn't she understand that? 
                          
My phone buzzed, snapping me out of my thoughts. I received a message from Khalil.  
                          
Khalil
                          
Tonight is a big night!! There's a big party held by one of the biggest dealers, all the gang is gonna be there so get your ass there on time. I'll meet you there and give you your packages to sell. Lets make tons!! 
                          
How did i forget about this party? Me and the gang have been waiting for this party for so long and it's finally here. I've been too busy with Selena, she made me forget about my reality. 
                          
I went to take a shower and thought to myself. Today i had business, so no Selena, i know which would be really hard, but she can't know about this. I'm doing it to protect her, because if she knows she will be involved in my mess and i don't want her to get hurt. And the worst of all i don't want to scare her away, i want her in my life, i need her. She's the only good thing in my life, she gives meaning to my meaningless life. 
                          
I was so glad when she didn't question too much about Barbara, because i didn't wanna tell her that i met her when i went to New York with my gang to deal and sell drugs. We were dealing in a big party like the one that's today, and Barbara was there too she bought drugs from us. And yes me and her did drugs together and hooked up, she was no special to me, she was just another desperate hoe. But we did exchanged numbers and i spent my last few night in NY with her. We didn't have sex because my virginity is something so precious to me and i wanna lose it to a real lady, not a hoe. I want to lose it to someone i love dearly and someone who's madly in love with me. That lady could be Selena. It could be. I never thought i'll see Barbara again, but it's a small world we live in. 
                          
After my long shower i came out of the bathroom and my phone was buzzing. I picked it up and it was Barbara. 
                          
Bara   
                          
hey jayyy r u going to the party cuz i am and i thought u could pick me up and we can party like old times💕
                          
To Bara
                          
sure bara i'll pick u up send me ur address  
                          
I texted her back and she replied instantly and sent me her address. Damn i got these hoes so whipped. They all were so desperate and had no self respect. They were nothing compared to Selena. I never feel any emotions when i'm with them, but when i'm with Selena i experience so many emotions that i never had before. I never had butterflies in my stomach before, i never felt sparks in my body when someone's lips touched mine and believe me a lot of lips have touched my lips before, i never felt anything then, but i get sparks and shivers just by the touch of Selena's hand on mine. This all was so new to me and it was all because of Selena. I just can't describe the feeling, it's just so....incredible and magical. It's the best feeling in the world and i don't know how to control it. 
                          
Because the party starts late I decided to text Selena. I wanted to spend sometime with her before I go off to the party which she can't know about. I hate that I had to hind this from her, because I would love to take her instead of Barbara. But the whole atmosphere of the party is not for Selena. People doing drugs, selling drugs, drinking way too much alcohol and there are so many dodgy people. God knows what they can do, they are all criminals and dealers, Selena does not belong there. I would die if something happens to her.