"What's so bad about me? Why do you hate me so much!"
I yell at him through my tears and his body stiffens. He slowly turns around and walks towards me. The pain in his eyes run as deep as mine and for some reason I pity him.
"You have no right to b...
I can hear Asher's motorcycle speed off through the slammed door. I clear my throat and blink a few times preparing myself to speak.
I ask if everyone's ready to go as I stare at the door through which Asher disappeared. I wish drew never grabbed my hand.
"Uhm. Yea. Let's go." Cam speaks and everyone follows.
Cam and Leah sit in the front of the truck and drew, ty, and I sit in the backseat while the rest pile in the truck bed.
As I sit in the truck I can't help but to stare out the window zoning everyone else out. I watch as the dark clouds form deep in the back of the ocean, whilst the sun still shines down here brightly. It's like another place.
Thunder roars in the distance and I see the lightning crack down on the oceans waves causing me to squeeze my eyes shut.
But once there closed it's even worse then when they were open. As soon as my eyes shut memories flood my mind.
I can see the hands on the steering wheel only now they belong to my mom who is crying and Gary who is really pissed off, both of them beyond drunk. 'Kaylee take me to your place!' My mom demands but Gary grabs the wheel and jerks it in the opposite direction demanding we go home with him. My mom jerks the wheel the other way and headlights come straight for us then a piercing sound of screeching tires and breaking glass burst through my head. The next thing I see is my sister laying down on the ground a few feet over from me.
When my eyes met her empty ones I knew she was gone. Blood spills from the corner of her mouth but still I can't except it. She isn't gone. She can't be.
I watch as the rain ruins her once perfect makeup that I always beg her to put on me, and I find myself getting angry. I want to scream at the sky at anything telling them to stop, not to ruin my beautiful sister's makeup that she works so hard on but I can't talk. I feel as if someone has wired my jaw shut.
My limp arm reaches for her, draining every last amount of energy I have, before my eyes flicker with darkness. But right before my body drifts into a deep sleep I see a little boy.
He can't be any older than 6.
He's standing by the other car that is burning up in flames in front of me, crying as he yells "Where's my mommy." The rain blends in with his salty tears as they fall down his fear stricken face. My eyes close and plead to stay that way but slowly I force them back open.
"I want my mommy." He cries again before crouching down and hugging his knees to his chest.
Lightning strikes on the car beside him and I hear a loud explosion before everything goes black.
"Bay, are you okay?" Drews voice snaps me out of the god awful flashback and I nod my head as I continue to stare out at the ocean.
I can feel my hot tears running down my face and all I want so badly is to be alone right now.
Alone where I can let the tears run free. Where I can kick and scream and be angry at anything and everyone.
"Bay." I hear cams stern voice as he looks back at me worriedly through the rear view mirror.
I want to be able to tell him I'm fine. That everything's alright. But it isn't. This whole surfing thing is a joke and I shouldn't have even attempted to be okay with it. My mom killed my sister.
I never want to see another damn surf board again. I don't want to be at this fucking beach. I don't want to be on this damn vacation and act like everything is just as normal as it was last year because it fucking isn't and it never will be! How could they do this.
"Stop the car." I say staring at the door handle waiting for him to stop as my legs bounces fiercely, just as impatient as my twitching hand.
The storm is growing closer and I'm not going to be stuck in this damn car again and there's no way in hell I'm letting anyone drive in it.
"Baylor." Leah's soft voice is the one that speaks this time but it only angers me. My breathing starts to increase and I feel like the air is being suctioned from the truck the longer I sit here.
"I said stop the car!" I yell and the car jolts to a stop. I push the door open as fast as I can but it still isn't fast enough. The windy air doesn't do anything with the lack of oxygen I feel.
I can hear music pounding in the distant. Drums maybe? there being played rapidly.
Duh.Dum.Duh.Dum.Duh.Dum. It's going a million times per second.
I spin in a circle looking for where it's coming from then I notice it's not drums at all, but my racing heartbeat.
My knees crash into the concrete and I feel instant pain but it feels good. Any pain other than the pain I feel in my chest right now would be better than this.
"Bay. Calm down." Cams small voice echoes a million times as his blurry figure in front of me doubles.
"I can't. I can't. I can't." I sob and gasp for air whilst my neck feels like someone is strangling me. Blocking off any remaining oxygen I might have had.
"Baylor you have to breathe calm down."
"I can't! Cam I can't! It was them! It was mom!" I sob louder this time and two burly arms wrap around me in a warm embrace. I wrap my arms back around Cameron's neck and continue to sob.
"Shh. Just breathe." His voice sends a small amount of comfort as he brushes my hair and a little bit of oxygen fills my lungs.
"It's my fault. It's all my fault." I sob harder and he begins to rock me in his arms.
"Don't say that. It wasn't your fault!"
"No. You- you don't know Cameron!" I cry about to tell him what I just found out.
But the lack of oxygen catches up to me and I struggle to suck one last breath of air through my teeth before darkness overcomes me.
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