Chapter 31

                                    

                                          
He was drowning in self-loathing. He didn't deserve it. It was his god damn fault, how could he blame anyone. Even though, the hard ass fate gave him a rough hand mocking him at his misery. He deserved to suffer, how could he complain when he should be the recipient of all agony & suffering, he wished he wasn't born or was dead. It was the height of his deprivity, the ugly demons with mouths open were ready to swallow him whole at a little clunk in his cold armor of indifference & numbness.  How could He, a despicable piece of human can think about such a pure, innocent beauty. How dare he! but He dared. He didn't just think about her instead he brought her into his blackened world by tying a noose of sacred marriage around her, binding her mentally, physically, emotionally all body & soul to him for eternity. Claiming her for himself irreversibly & irrevocably. He showed his middle finger to the fates or whatever-cursed-destiny. For the first time in the clusterfuck-called-Life, He needed that something or rather someone for himself. In this bullshit-of-a-life, he dared them to mess yet again but he swore he wouldn't let them take her away. By god, In this miserable life of his he will have Her, he promised himself. Come hell or high water, he will have Her!
Then he got her, the becon of light to his eternal darkness, the only air he could breathe, the only water he could breakthrough, the only place where his demons could be silenced, the only place he could be heard, the only place he could close his weary eyes and battered body after fighting through the battle-called-Life, the only place where he could be truly, utterly & unbelievably at Peace!
She didn't have a single idea. Not a fucking clue what she meant to him. He loved her unconditionally, uncontrollably, incomprehensibly, irrationally & infinitely. How much he needed her! He needed her like a drowning man gasping for air to breathe, craving her like a junkie begging for his next fix, desiring her like a fish grasping for water, obsessing over her like a blind man seeing the sun for the first time, memorizing her being, each contour and curve no matter how small willing to imprint them in his memory. She was the air he breathe, the food he ate, the water he drank, everything was for Her. He could only say:
She was the Silence to His Chaos,
The Calm to his raging Storm,
The Balm to his tattered Soul,
The Light to his blackened Heart,
The Hope to His broken Dreams,
The Medicine to his unbearable Pain,
The Relief to His unbearable Agony,
The Gift for all His ever-lasting Suffering,
The Laughter to all His heart-wrenching cries,
The happiness, roses, sunshine to His world of blood, gore & hate,
The Good to His overwhelming Evil,
The Ban of His existence, His very own Lifeline, His Kryptonite!
Afterall, She was His Maharukh for all Eternity & Beyond!
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The blurring scenery of the tropical Mexican forests soothed me. Although, the sun kissed my olive skin through the windscreen but the crispy air blowing on my face kept me cool. I was enjoying the balmy breeze when Aarej held my hand. I opened my eyes peeking at him behind my shades, he just watched me his gaze intense on my cold face, wind blowing the tendrils of my soft hair. After Aarej's almost murderspree for Bhai & Sheriyar Bhai & my totally embrassing story of making a Utter fool of myself, we were on our way to Aarej showing me his idea of Fun. Which is in itself hilarious if glanced upon the respective subject but thankfully I kept my mouth shut not jumping out of the frying pan into the fire.
He seemed to be in a very good mood not reflecting upon his trademark scowl & glaring eyes. His frowning face does not help either but alas, it was much better then his threatening face but I, the smart human concluded that from his piercing stare which was directed at me after every two minutes. To be honest, I was beginning to think I have something on my face. The loud cheers & thunder of claps sucked my attention to the emerging crowd, a cluster of colors & heads as we zoned pass them. They parted like Red sea as the car whized through hords of people shrieking & screaming. Finally, we slowed in the middle of the road, people surrounded us in a frenzy when Aarej stopped the car & in a classic James Bond style stepped out of the car, putting on his wafers. The catcalls & piercing screams with bloodcurling shrieks erupted in the sky echoing across the field. Thank God for it being a secluded area or the police would have raided here but honestly I think police must knew about this Illegal Racing ring but turned the blind eye. I didn't even have a time to blink when in the next second, my door opened & Aarej extended his hand. Before I could even come out of my daze suddenly, there was absolute & utter silence, all the cheering & enthusiasm was nowhere to be found. I put my shivering hand into Aarej's warm one, looking into his eyes which were stoic but gave me all the assurance in the whole world when he nodded. Inhaling nervously, I came out of the car as Aarej wrapped his sturdy hand around my waist. People gawked at me open-mouthed. I could feel the raging stares boring into my body from head to toe. I fidgeted mentally giving myself a prep talk to stand my ground & let then judge me because I was no coward & I wasn't willing to run & they can't make me.