특별 장 [i]

                                    

                                          
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— chap. 0
【 J E O N'S  POV 】
                          
I emotionlessly stare at my phone. Shaking constantly as I grip the case. I'm afraid to commit that I'm jealous right now, just secretly glancing (Y/N) and Hyung Yoongi laughing together.


                          
'Shit, why am I even looking to them?' I cursed then went back my gaze to my phone. Not letting any tear to fall from my eyes, I scroll the pictures of my gallery, avoiding the possessive feelings inside of me.


                          
'It should be me (Y/N), Not hyung' I sighed while looking at the selcas that all my hyungs took. Recently my performance started being mediocre and my life just then felt so crushed because behalf of me was still waiting for her.


                          
I then again stared at Suga-hyung's picture that he just took after the concert.


                          
'He looks happy' I smiled weakly, disgust was filled in my eyes and the hostile feeling behind of it.


                          
"What do you see in him that I don't have (Y/N)?" I mumbled as I laid my back to the couch whilst still looking at the picture of hyung, making my mind raced with memories. 


                          
The way he treated you and the way he looked at you before was not even suitable to love him, he even curses, he do his own way without anyone letting him to stop and only he does is to sit then let his mind take over.


                          
'Damnit, I'm better than him.' I said veraciously. I was even being distant to him, since I could not just believe my eyes that you ended up with him and not me.


                          
I sighed in flustration as I felt someone patted my back, I didn't bother to turn around because I knew that it would be probably Taehyung.


                          
But a feeling had urge me that it wasn't, his hands was smaller than before. So it might be someone else. I then turned around because of curiousity.


                          
To my surprise, it wasn't really him but Jimin. "Are you okay Jungkook-ah?" He asked when he saw me looking at him, sitting in the couch after.


                          
'Isn't it obvious, Hyung?' I angrily thought, I even wanted to tell him so badly that I wanted (Y/N) right now. 


                          
"I'm fine Hyung." I said plainly as my eyes drifted off to the floor, I felt demise for a minute. Placing my phone back to my pocket then positioned my hands on my lap.


                          
"Are you sure?" Jimin asked, placing both of his hands to my shoulders as he turned my body to the side, forcefully tried to make an eye contact with him. 


                          
I then let a huff and cocked my head up to make an eye contact. 


                          
"No." 


                          
Silence was then followed as expected, he just bowed his head down in disappointment. Even inasmuch as I tried to deny it, he would never know the reason anyway. Everyone knew that my excellent performance was now lacking.


                          
And since, I only trusted Taehyung the most, only he does know.


                          
"Would you now tell me, what's going on?" Jimin pursued, he let his hands fall off from my shoulder then gave me a face with bewilderment. 


                          
I shook my head. Even how much they pleaded, that won't change anything. (Y/N) is still gonna choose Suga over me, just like what she did before.