I saw Kayla and Jake too. I think they are together now. I was so sad because it was me who made it happen. I just hate myself right now. He walked to me and said "i couldn't ask for a better bestfriend than you. Thank you." He smiled and walked back to Kayla. A better "bestfriend". I didn't want to be his bestfriend i wanted to be his girlfriend but now i lost him. I went to the bathroom and cried. Luke followed me but didn't enter the bathroom. He heard me crying so he kept knocking on the door until i finally went out. He held my hand and walked me to the garden. "What's wrong?". I told him everything. I told him i love Jake and now i lost him because he have a girlfriend and he loved her and i was friendzoned only. I guess he felt sorry for me. I went home and i was so devastated. I listened to "Fall To Pieces" the song describes my life right now.
And i don't wanna fall to pieces,
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it.
And i don't want a conversation,
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it,
Cause i'm in love with you.
I just wanna cry in front of him so he could finally see that i really love him. But i'll look like i'm seeking his attention. Well it's what i want but not to make his girlfriend jealous and then have problems and things like that. I sat on my bed while crying. My heart is broken. I wish someone could finally take it off my chest so i won't feel pain. I woke up and my phone was ringing. It was 11:23pm. I went to see who it was and it was Luke. He asked if i was okay and if i need someone to talk to. I told him everything's alright but my voice was breaking and i think he realised that. After i said goodbye and hung up. I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone. I went downstairs to the kitchen, took some ice cream and went upstairs again. I sat in front of the mirror and ate it while looking at myself crying. But i wanted some cheer up. I got a text from Jake. He started telling me jokes.
