Chapter 22

                                    

                                          
            
                          
A/N: Another chapter up! Happy reading!!
                          
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Tsukiyomi's P.O.V

                          
Pain.
                          
Dull stinging pain.
                          
Was the only thing I could feel as I felt myself swirl around in the dark and lonely abyss. The stinging pain was more concentrated at my left arm and my stomach.
                          
Sitting with my knees held close to my chest, I interlocked my hands together over my legs as I rest my head by placing my chin on my knees while leaning against a tree. Being under the shade of the tree, my eyes roamed the dark environment before the corner of my lips curled into a frown.
                          
Dark, gloomy clouds filled the dark bluish-grey sky. The river in front of me looked cold as the water was still and quiet. Even the trees looked dead and lifeless. The grassy field was nothing but a brown piece of land left now as the grass and flowers drooped down to show how dead and withered they are. Lifting my head up, my eyes now stared at the dark sky.
                          
"It's dark... It's always dark..." I mumbled under my breath as I lifted my head back down, opting to rest my forehead on my knees. Closing my eyes tightly shut, I hugged myself even closer, "... It's been dark ever since that winter night... and growing darker ever since my first human kill after I was thrown out..." Tears started brimming at my eyes before more collected and slid down my cheeks.
                          
Drop by drop, they dripped down my chin and soaked my shirt I wore in this dreamscape a shade darker in its colour.
                          
As seconds passed, the scene of the grassy fields filled with trees and a big clear and blue river with the clear blue sky with a few fluffy clouds pictured itself into my mind, making me reminiscent back to my past. The past years when I was still young and the time I still was with my family, the part which was filled with much love and happiness. The time of my young life where this place in my unconscious mind was still lively and full of different colours.
                          
But now, it had reduced to this dark and gloomy environment. And it's been growing darker every time I did a bad deed while in the Port Mafia. Although, escaping from their clutches and joining hands with the Armed Detective Agency to help people instead, the darkness has never grown any darker since then. The darkness was even receding back slowly to let the previous bright light back the more I get to know the rest of the Agency's members, especially Dazai.
                          
"But... Despite this, it seems like my dirty deeds are not going to be cleared so easily huh...? The darkness is not going away fully... and," looking down on my hands as I lifted my head up, I balled my hands into fist, "I can still feel it... I can still see it in my mind, of the blood staining my hands the colour red. The innocent lives I took by using my ability and these bare hands..." dropping my hands onto the earthy ground, my head dropped back to rest on the knees as the aching in my chest increased.
                          
At the times I worked at the Port Mafia. It was kill or be killed. If I do not follow the rules or finish the mission given, my life would be threatened.
                          
The Port Mafia do value their members like family. If any member was kidnapped or killed, they would send people to bring back their captured member back with force or get back revenge on their member's killer respectively.
                          
I was dearly taken care of both physically and mentally for my well-being. Physical trainings were given for me to get used to my newly developed ability at that time I was first taken in, and some of the members there took care of me like I was part of a family. This was why I was able to meet various different people in the Port Mafia and know them to some extent.