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- Week later - 
                          
I'd told my brother every single detail that was on my mind as he sat and listened to me for about a hour straight. It was now 2 weeks since i'd left Slough i'd locked my phone away and anything else i could use to go on social media and just spent my time writing my blog but this time it wasn't for show it was only for my eyes and my thoughts becuase my grandad always said i shouldn't keep everything bottled up they will eventually crack. And i believe him. I walked downstairs and saw my brother holding a bit of paper folded 
                          
" Steph i found this on your car seat i haven't looked at it don't worry but i think it might be important" He spoke as i took it from him and walked into the living room opening the paper up.
                          
Steph
I deeply apologise for kissing you i think your amazing i really do but please please don't leave us forever it will break us,all of us. We all love you in our own little way nothing will change that... Please come back soon 
                          
Jack... your irish idiot xx - 28/03/17
                          
As i read it tears dripped onto the paper showing how much i did acutally miss them without even meaning too. But i'd told myself that i was never ready to go back and i never will again so i don't ruin their lives. Mikey doesn't need me none of them do i'm just a girl who messed up the whole band entirely. I hate myself for it i really do. I decided to place the paper in my handbag and bring my camera as i wanted to go for a walk in my local park Josh insisted to come with me as he wanted to help me take photos.
                          
" Yeah stand against this wall Steph and look like moody " Josh laughed pointing the camera in my direction as i posed and he smiled i loved my brother he's always their for me even though i'm older than him he's so caring and kind. We've always been so close and i love it. 
Josh carried on taking more photos of random things ,him and me, before we went into a cute little cafe on the corner of our street. It was called The bright box café and it was filled with the most vintage looking things you could ever think off, The perfect opportunity to take good photos and Josh took upon this offer and used me as the model throughout our lunch. 
                          
" Thanks Josh " i laughed 
                          
" I think you should post one now i brought your phone with me or i'll post it just to let your fans know that your still alive yeah?" Josh asked for my permission 
                          
" Yeah you can do it" I smiled drinking my tea 
                          
" sorted with a filter that matches your theme and everything " He smiled
                          
" Thankyou for an amazing day out Josh you've really cheered me up" I smiled 
                          
" That's what i'm here for aye" He laughed ruffling my hair as he went off to go toilet before my phone buzzed and i took it from his side of the table and saw that Mikey had tweeted 
                          
Photographs paint a thousand words wow... • Mikey 
                          
I knew he was talking about mine as i'd noticed the like on my photo that Josh had uploaded i tired to hide the small smile that grew onto my face by that but it didn't last for long as after that tweet comments of nasty,vile,horrible people flooded in so i turned my phone fully off and waited for Josh to come back in. Luckily he didn't take long and his smiling cute little face came bouncing back opposite me.
                          
" Everything okay? you seem different since i left?" He spoke looking at my phone in my hand 
                          
" I'm okay" I spoke 
                          
" No your not what happened on your phone?" Josh held his hand out for me to put my phone in which i did 
                          
" Just Mikey tweeting" I spoke 
                          
" and?" He spoke
                          
" People commenting horrible things" i sighed 
                          
" No no no you don't take no shit from no-one your Stephanie Wood! my sister and i won't let these stupid little bitches bring your mood down okay?" Josh acted so offended 
                          
" deal" I laughed a little at his actment 
                          
" Come on let's go film a video for my youtube it will make you laugh we can do never have i ever or the sibling tag?" He smiled 
                          
" Sure why not" I smiled as We got up and walked back to our house and we went into his room as i waited for him to set up his camera and lights. After Josh finished messing with the lights he started recording 
                          
" Hwy everyone in here with my Sister Steph! woo and before i start apologises for Steph she's not her usual self a lot of things have happened recently but we should all love her and treat her the same as we normally would okay thankyou *laughs* Today we are going to be filming the never have i ever video so Steph you go first" Josh smiled looking at me 
                          
" Err Never have i ever peed in a friends bed but never told them " I laughed holding up never but Josh held up Have 
                          
" Well i'm excited to hear this story" I laughed looking at Josh who was going slightly red 
                          
" Well so it was acceptable becuase i was drunk so it's fine but i was round my friends house and it was after a party and i woke up at like stupid o'clock in the morning needing a wee but somehow i could never open the door so i just turned and weed on the rug so technically it wasn't a bed but yeah i went back into bed and fell asleep no-one knew it was me becuase my friend blamed it on the dog and i couldn't remember so it was all fine" Josh laughed 
                          
" Omg your a nightmare" I laughed 
                          
" says you " He laughed joking 
                          
" oi!" i laughed pushing him a little before he pushed me back making me fall off the bed and he just burst out laughing
                          
" Well It's just me now " He laughed so the next question 
                          
" Never have i ever stolen from a sibling " He says as i get back onto the bed and hold up have and he does the same 
                          
" Woah what did you steal from me!" He overreacted as i just laughed 
                          
" Chill it was only one of your tops so i could wrap it around my waist " I smiled 
                          
" Okay that's acceptable " Josh laughed
                          
" And anyway what did you steal from me?" I asked
                          
" errr nothing " He laughed 
                          
Josh ended the video and i gave him my laptop so he could edit on as i began to read the note from Jack again as i laid on my bed. 
                          
" What does the note say? " Josh asked 
                          
" It's just from one of the boys back in Slough " I asked 
                          
" So it's not Mikey then " He said 
                          
" No it's not from Mikey " i spoke 
                          
" It's from Jack isn't it " He spoke 
                          
" Yeah but it's fine it's just an apologie " I spoke 
                          
" I'm going to town with my mates is that okay? i can stay id you want i'll tell everyone that your still not okay and that i need to look after you " Josh explained 
                          
" Don't be stupid go i'll be fine by myself it's okay go have fun " He hugged me and grabbed his and my phone before he left and i saw him riding off down the road on his bike. 
                          
Shortly after Josh had left the doorbell rang i put the letter under my pillow and walked downstairs i opened the door as my jaw just dropped... 
                          
" Hi Steph..."