Chapter 42 ~ I guess the date with Mrs. Palmer didn't go too well

                                    

                                          
Song of Chapter: Wild Side by Mötley Crüe  okay about this song this extremely cruel song it talks about assault, fighting, killing, and beliefs. If you can't handle that don't listen to it. The reason I pick this song, it literally is the way of how people of this world do or think. The song may be extremely cruel it tells the truth. (Plus it's from the 80's they didn't care they told the truth). 
                          
*unedited*
                          
I laid in bed staring at the ceiling. 
                          
Like I've been doing since I left the party five hours ago. 
                          
Carly, Ava, Troy, and Reece have idea that I left. But ran into Raven telling him as I called taxi, he was confused but I needed out of there. 
                          
Ever since I got back I've been staring at the ceiling. 
                          
Why? Is the question I've been thinking over and over.
                          
I have no real answer.
                          
I lay my hands on my face rubbing my close eyes. 
                          
I feel like crying but no tears fall.
                          
God I miss him but I shouldn't 
                          
I get up and walk over to my desk, I stare at the silver bracelet that Jace gave me on Christmas and I sit at my chair and I pick it up and stare at it. The wind gets knocked out of me as I stare at the silver medal.
                          
Looking at the picture engraved on the charm rips my heart into two. 
                          
Seeing him with her, seeing him kiss her, being called her boyfriend. 
                          
I stand up and start pacing holding the bracelet in my hand. 

                          
I can't keep doing this, I can't keep going backwards. 

                          
I open my drawer of my desk and drop the bracelet in there. I walk in my closet and change into ripped jeans with a shirt with cut off sleeves that says 'Bite me Bitch' on the front of it. Throwing on my beat up leather jacket. 
                          
Grabbing my duffle bag. I check my phone and I see have messages from Raven and one from Jace. I shut off my phone and sneak downstairs and grabbing Luke's keys.
                          
I leave to the home that has answered so many questions in the past. 
                          
"Are really sure that you are fine Wild? You don't seem fine." Raven goes on and on and on with his questions. 
                          
"No, I'm not fine. Are you finally happy that I admitted it? It doesn't matter it's not going to get in my way of living my life. I've grown up with huge disappoints what makes this different?" I ask and glance at him. 
                          
"It doesn't but I'm worried about you that's all. Melanie all of us here that were here from the beginning are family and nobody gets left behind or forgotten." Raven says and I roll my eyes and I laugh.
                          
"That's from lilo and Stitch." I tell Raven and he shrugs. With a charming smile towards me, he goes on and says. "Lilo is a smart girl can't help it." I shake my head with a laugh. 
                          
Nikki walks over to us with annoyed look upon his handsome face. "I need Vodka those fucking Rookies, that never listen and they keep doing things that I have taught them. 
                          
My curiousness peaks. "Excuse me? I'm confused, what do you mean?" 
                          
"What I mean is they are doing illegal moves. Even though we do host illegal fights, we always keep the fighting clean. They are doing the moves that you would do to them for pissing you off." Nikki goes on to say and my anger heightens.
                          
"I got this." I say walking past Nikki. 
                          
"No, it's ok-" 
                          
"Dude she's in a mood might as well let her kill the rookie then us." I hear Raven say and I roll my eyes.