Self Hatred

                                    

                                          
I got home quickly, running the the front door. Throwing my keys on the counter, I realized Seamus, Aleks, James, and Eddie were all standing in the kitchen. Shit, I swear I didn't see Eddie's car in the drive!
                          
"H-hi guys." I said as my bangs fell in front of my eyes. 
                          
"Hey babe, you okay?" Seamus asked, making my pulse race. 
                          
"I-I'm fine." I replied, unable to look at him. "I'm just tired." 
                          
With my breath stuck in my throat, I ran upstairs in a hurry. 

                          
Eddie's POV 
                          
Harley bolted upstairs, and it looked like there were tears in her eyes. I looked over to the others, seeing they were just as worried. 
                          
"It's getting too late. Maybe you guys should head home." I suggested, secretly worrying that Harley's anxiety would get to her if they stayed too long. 
                          
"Yeah, yeah I guess." Aleks sighed while he fished for his keys in his pocket. 
                          
"My mom will probably already beat my ass for being late." James joked as he waited on Aleks.
                          
Finally Aleks found his keys, and the two left, hugging Seamus and I on their way out. Then Seamus began to walk to the door, and turned around for a few seconds. 
                          
"Listen, take good care of her." He said "I don't want her hurt, by anyone, including me."
                          
"I promise, I'll protect her from as many evils as I can." I wearily grinned. 
                          
He smiled a silent 'thank you' and opened the door, closing it behind him. I sighed out of relief since they were gone, then jogged upstairs. 


                          
As lightly as I could, I knocked on Harley's door. No reply, but I knew she was up. The light was still under the door. 
                          
I knocked again, and when there was no answer, I let myself in. She was on her bed, staring at the wall like her soul was gone. 
                          
"Harles? You okay?" I sweetly asked as I sat down next to her. 
                          
She slowly opened her mouth to say something, but the sound came out so slow. Finally, she muttered. "I did something bad, Eddie, something I really shouldn't have done... but I can't take it back. I want to so bad, but I can't." 
                          
"What did you do?" I curiously asked. 
                          
Harley turned her head to face me. Then she broke down all at once, letting out a lot of fear all at once. "I hurt him." She sobbed as she rested in my arms. "I hurt him and he doesn't even know it. I'm such an idiot, so hate myself." 
                          
"No, no! Don't talk like that! You're an amazing girl, but even the greatest people make mistakes. It just means your human, it's okay. Shhh, shhh, it's okay."